I was reading a friend's blog when i remembered how peotic writing can be. it's like i've forgotten how literature is like. how words can flow from a peron's mind into a piece of writing. it's a talent that i guess i don't have. more like, i don't have the skills to express myself or my thoughts as well. to piece a sentence is becoming harder and harder for me. i pride myself for being able to speak well but when the time comes for me to argue or to fluently express myself, i'm impaired. in the heat of the moment all i can reply is silence. well, i do have other reasons for not rebutting or arguing. especially when it isover petty things, i find that arguing is pointless. each time i look at people arguing, again for the wrong reasons, they all look so.. ugly last, and probably my biggest concern, i don't want to look stupid. haha
of course, there are just some people who can charasmatically argue their way around and simply win you over with their logic and oratal (is there such a word?) skills. take hitler for instance. or my tutorial group members. hehe
i should write more. sadly, with all the readings and essay assignments that i've been doing, i'm beginning to lose all my interest in writing and finding it hard to start on one.
mehh (lost for words? hehe)
Thursday, March 03, 2011
me.
7:17 PM
and i still spent money to watch new moon. but it was to spend time with friends haha. ;] nvm la, still good, can see taylor lautner's abs super defined. haha. and finally found a shop in singapore that sells moonstone jewellery! usually they only sell the basic gems and opals. but damn sia. just realised that the ring that bella (kristen) wears all the time in the movies is a moonstone ring. rainbow moonstone if im not wrong. damn. later if i buy pple will think im in love with twilight. duhh im not.
Saturday, December 05, 2009
me.
6:36 PM
KITTENSSSSS!
born at the fifth floor of my block hehe. cant adopt them. mom wont let. auntie came to my hse in the morn to ask if i wan them. sadded. went sch, played tennis for the (maybe) last time. boring coz alone. kena pangseh-ed by mira. went jp and looked fer prom dress fer burp. veryy hard sia. but damn fun with joycelyn too. ate. went again. burp got scared of the persistant saleswoman who cannot speak english other than the phrase "try ah. try ah. very nice. very nice". haha. finally got one and then met jan. thanks babe! oh yeah kena pangseh-ed by mun heng this time. went to vcd shop. no point fer me. dvd player broken. homed.
and you said you felt it was easier to be forgotten and left behind. but yet.
Monday, November 30, 2009
me.
4:26 PM
life is honestly a bore after everything. like seriously, i'd rather sleep and sleep and sleeep now. i usually wake up no earlier than 3pm haha. but hey, dreaming is nice! just today i dreamt that i could see ALL the stars from where i was, the MOON! haha. its pretty random, especially since i just had to clap and all the dark sky wld clear and i can see all the stars and the meteor showers and then the aliens and planets. well the aliens started fighting, explosions and all, so i clapped again to cover the sky again. haha. so random
well i cld have seen that at the meteor shower recently. but hey, you cant see bursting alien ships when you look up the sky! haha
but anywawyyy, at least i managed to have some great dates recently! with ilyanti and melissa!! lovely lovely
cant believe i went all the way to bishan to go "jogging" with nab. but hey, good thing was, there was this cuteeeeee guy there! well, didn have my specs and cldnt see him at first. but needed to ask for directions so, tap tap "heyy, do you know how to get to bishan harmony park?" haha. and nab was like thinking " dayahh are you serioussss" coz i just randomly tappedthat guy. but thennnn. noticed his feature and hell! he's got japanese eyesssss, slightly malay look but obviously chinese and haha overall just cute! sounds totally singaporean tho haha. so we took the "four and one", no "four one zero, WHITE" bus there. lovely time just "jogging" and camwhoring. lots of laughs at nab's weirdness - called the sky the "ceiling", a crane a "seagull" etc. and yeah, any exercise we did was offset by the PASTAMANIA we had! haha. super cheesy adn creamy day! went her hse to try clothes and then homed. lovely lovely. we still gots loads to do tgt!! got a whole list! haha
then time with mel. cant believe we still can hang out and spend time tgt easily. breakfast at long johns! talked abt so many things. stupid of me to try my boots coz i still cant really tahan heels. haha. went arnd jp for a couple of hours and mann. she shopped a lot! haha! like every shop we went to sure got buy smth! haha. damn. forgot to take pics! oh wells. she's havin fun at her cruise! not fair! ;[
currently the upcoming events seem kinda dull. not much to do. still gots dates with somefriendsthatmightjustpangsehmeandiftheydoi'llkillthem. haha. i wanna watch a movie! watched new moon online alr (im NOT gonna spend money on that movie) anyone up for 2012 or.. wait wads coming up ah? oh yeah! i wanna watch m fantastic fox and the informant! and i wanna go escape sia, how long has that been? haha
oh wells. must clear cupboard tmw.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
me.
10:08 PM
A LEVELS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! for me at least. haha
but then again, i dun really feel the euphoria of afterexams right now. each time after any paper, i can only feel... hunger. haha. it was only history's first paper when i really got that great feeling of excitement. well, thats prolly coz that was the only paper that i was excited to finish. well, now its kinda dead. unlike most people, i dun really have a list of things i wanna and gonna do after my As. yanah keeps asking "wad are you gonna do after As? how long is your list??" I DUNNO MANN. not like its the end of the world and we gotta do all we need to.
plus i gots nos moneys.
and my laptop's dead.
sucks
but gg out with retna,weiyi and charm was great! totally recommend DOMINO'S PIZZA! the cinnamon bread is like woahhhhh and its pretty reasonable too. at Bukit Timah. and haha! trying to play QUESTIONS ONLY like in Whose Line Is It Anyways was hilarious! great game to play with friends and family! i totally RECOMMEND it! haha and its at 130am on mondays, tuesdays, thurs and fri nights. love love. the bloopers are even better ;] "i smell like condiments!"
on a different note
ok fine nvm.
sad.
Friday, November 20, 2009
me.
12:59 AM
wooo.. bdae gone liaoz. haha.
mann, honestly, i was pretty sad on my bdae. thought at least ONE person might sms me on midnight... or in the morning you know?.. slept feeling sad coz no msgs.. woke up for a while and still no msgs... so sad... then haha, woke up at like 12 pm? or smth.. and STILL no msgs. was getting pissed. coz overslept plus no msg.. and thennnn
drum rollsssss
gots an idea! switch off phone. switch on phone.
SUDDEN INFLUX OF MSGS IN GREAT NUMBERS! or SIAO! MY PHONE JUST GOT SPAMMED!
haha. stupid phone. but the day before and after my bdae were more memorable ;]
delifrance with delta was great mann! was totally random (just got to know like in the morn? wasnt even invited ;[ ) and before that i managed to surprise tommy first! ;] haha! we seriously should have brought a CGS school yearbook or smth sia! coz i was like freaking LOST most of the time. come on! i'll be lucky if i can name all my classmates after not meeting them for a year, much less the rest of CGS! haha. only ONE of my pics turned out okayy and that's with my PARTNER SHERMAIN! ;]]]
ok nvm. cant upload. grr
bdae day boring. got a little sick in the afternoon so slept again. wonder why my nose keeps bleeding recently. oh wells.
then SATURDAY with delta AGAIN! goshhh twice a week! quite smth hor? haha. but SEttlers' was GREAT mannnnn haha. the guy with big specs kinda looked like Mr Hendri! haha but he was cute! always see him eye-ing our table when we were making so much noise over the damn JUNGLE JUMBLE thingy! haha! Gad is Epic one la. its like the whole table will be damn quiet for a while before she can realise all the bones are gone! haha! and Cherie got FORFEIT!
"I'll do this only ONCE!"
hahahahahahah! poor waiter! the games were interesting! nothing beats jungle jumble i thikn. closest was the.... panda orchestra thingy? haha! and well... for some reason im the ALIEN. WHYYYYYYY I DONT GET IT!!!!! I DIDNT PUSH DOWN THE DAMN DUSTBIN ON PURPOSE DAMMIT! AND THAT WAS IN SEC ONEEEEEEEE EHHH! shesh!!! hahahaha. mann. of all the things to be remembered for siaaaa.
oh yea my skirt (omg i wore a skirt! well gad wore a DRESS!) got caught on the elevator! ;[ managed to trick wangjin and cherie that it was designs tho haha!
sighhhh
nice nice ;]
i dunno how to describe how happy i am. like seriously, each time i go for delta outing, its always great! well the ending always a bit uhhh coz we just cant find a place to take pics! haha. kinda makes me forget wadeva shit that i might be gg thru. and allows me to treasure the moment. maybe its coz i dont see these pple often? if i did, wld it be less special? haha. wadeva it is, i love these outings.
oh goshh i miss mira! happy bdae too babe! ;]]
Monday, July 13, 2009
me.
5:27 PM
oh mann. school's starting soon. and midyears coming directly. wad day is it today? oh right, its thursday, 4 freaking days to hist paper. 5 days to lit paper. 6 days to econs paper. thats not even a week!
glad for june hols tho ;] didnt do much but study and occasionally go out. had a great time playing tennis with syira tho! hehe. aw shit my phone's screwed. nvm abt that. slept too much i think, must have lycanthropy or smth.
and i met ILYANTI!! and GUESS WADDD! she's OVERWEIGHT! haha! like finally! hahhah! but she doesnt look like it! thx for the gifts babe ;]
goshhh. i cant help but to feel this way. this paradox.
My Innocent Decadence.
how can it seem so right and innocent? deep inside i know its all wrong. but it was so natural and comfortable. naturally comfortable. comfortably natural. but it was. can it stay this way, just a bit longer? but isn't that just the same as denying reason? there are so many 'but's.