8:45 PM
todae was NCC day.. ok not todae but we had the observation thingy todae.. well... it wasnt as special as how it was when i was part a.. part a... its has been some time eh?... but time passes so fsat for me to realise... anyway... banging suxed... i reli dun like the keluar baris... shldnt the timing be slower? well i thought so.. and yar.. my boots were like.. damn painful... arghh.. must go repair already lei... like its so senget... then i still couldnt find my belt so i had to wear my dad's... retarded sia... then banging... haiz.. haf i said it suxed?... i guess i was at fault too la... didnt bang properly... but there was once it was good... not say very solid but yar.. good.. i remember man... there was once i heard a solid bang .. with no4 boots la... then it was so solid with so many pple i was like.. "... wow..."... like seriously la.. pple laugh at you when your banging sux... but im glad SM got to go up the stage and not like red cross and girl guides i think, they use the lower part of the stage... not very nice la... then she didnt use the mic.. then her voice loud.. good good... i thought the ones bringing up the flag has to salute after taking one step back?.. well staffs did it differently.. was there a change made abt it or something?
yea then after that we changed.. i wore Citadel shirt! hehe the polo one la... haha... soap thought i looked Bang... wadehell... the rest wear like class tee or obs shirt... i couldnt find my obs shirt this morning also... then the concert was short but then good la... the last one damn funny! madam kartinie lei.. haiz.. tsk tsk... then the songs and skits... good la ha... im happy i go to wear that shirt!... hehe...
oh yar.. ive been getting a lot of headaches lately.... i dunno la... lack of sleep? i guess so... and yar... ms saifa's gonna kill me... she very angry la... we never finsh her work... what to do??? ya... i passed up most of it already.. then i passing up the rest of the compos to her tmw morning..i can do it!... but then got one more compo lei... and another pemahaman.. dammit.. okla... i better get cracking... byuez
Friday, June 30, 2006
me.
12:40 AM
heyy..im back.. yesterdae rite.. there as no prof test... they just wanted to check uniform... i tell u ah... i was sleeping while ironing my uniform, u cant expect me to polish my boots sia... anyway it ended up to be the interview for some of us... as in THE interview.. oh wells.. i wonder what ill say... anyway we didnt even haf pt.. we practiced the ncc day thingy.. and yar lor.. pretty much dat... cheat my feelings onli... oh wells.. now.. as in todae, i haf to be in sch by 640am.. ask my mom to send me lor... can la ha... onli problem is... i cant find my belt! as in not the belt buckle, the whole belt! can die one la.. and im like at the back row so pple can see me...
haiz hidayah hidayah... learn to be more responsible can?? shesh! STOP assuming things... it might not be there even if u think so! check no less than twice! ok yar.. im scolding myself... arggh!!.. and yar... even tho there are some compulsory hmk to be passed up by todae, im gonna pass up onli... malay (miss saifa.) and emaths 7a,b (miss ho)... bio, ill try to do but rite now ive got 10 minutes to 1am.. well i slept just now so i wont be too sleepy... ok... emaths can la.. but then malay ah... i like got so many compos to do.. and the non mcq ones i didnt do lor... why didnt i? coz i had no time! i tell you ah... malay was the onli thing i did in US but then cannot do much...and i had to be more focused at other things at that time... okay.. i better start doing hmk now.... ill do maths first... take arnd... and hr max..then malay... shld be more but then the compos leave out.. finsh up everything else... i got.... how many hrs now?... abt 4 hrs... one hr for uniform.. at will give me two hrs for malay... ok ill take ano and a half for malay... ok... i shall start doing maths 7a,b now! .......
(i shall be back!)
i finished my maths (in 30 mins)... ok not finish but then most ly like 80% done... i forgot to bring calculator ma... ok.. now... to do malay!
omg.. im getting sleepy....
its 3 am now.. i cant help it... ica nt take it.. im gonna doz ef.. just kill me la miss saifa..
me.
11:28 PM
oh yar..i know its very random but then im gonna say abt my commanding...well.. first dae.. it suxed coz i was nervous.. i went like so fast... but then like hell of a lot of pple's head went up when i commanded... now like okayla... haha.. i purposely bang damn hard on the stage before i command so pple wont be so shocked or something...butt hen in parade sq a bit the hard.. my voice wont echo so i need to really project my voice... not too hard but i scared i a bit the extra.... okla.. need go toilet.. haha
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
me.
10:17 PM
syf just now...i officially HATE contigent one... wadehell la... the fue de joie (wadever la the spelling) rite... its supposed to be check then bang but then they bang like straight after the command lor.. because of them the timing screwed up... arghh.. then i tried to do wad the sir told us to do.. "time it yourself".. then when i trying to do with the correct timing, contigent 4 already shoot... dammit la... previously as in mondae it was okayla... i tell u ah.. i dreamt that cotingent 1 was exchanged with contigent 4.. i was like so glad la...
haiz.. and yar.. Rupini has to cut all contacts with the ICEP pple... including me,... damn sad lei!! like wadehell... she my good fren already you know.. arghh... like its not like as if we talk abt Crescent and Cedar NCC la... got nothing to say also.. and its like we arent leaking anything...just casual talking... like for me... i cant even remember if she actually said something abt Cedar.. like so me i talk a lot la... but like we trust each other la.. like frens... haiz.. 10 daes onli and she's actually closer to me than some of my platoonmates... well she's the onli one that i really say things like... ok stuff...to... like wadehell... arghh...
oh... she's my long LONG lost cousin anyway.. yup.. hehe...
but then like todae was the last dae we can actually talk to each other so just now we liket talked A LOT.. haha... abt US trip.. abt when we haf to meet coz abt the essay we haf to pass up and all that la... then even went to conference with syafiq and sotong also...talked abt the US thingy we haf to meet up for... cant wait for 8th july! like me advanced birthdae gift.. hehe... haiz... to think that i cant keep in contact with rupini is so... depressing.... my pltnmates were also like keep on saying "i thought you were from cedar!" or "ya la... you can go transfer schools to cedar already!"... yala yala... i wont neglect you guys okay?.. just admit it la.. you miss me rite?... see me with other schools jealous already rite?... hehe haha...wadehell...
oh yar... cherie got OBC... have i said that before?.. yea... high chance getting USM le... good luck cherie!
my acting good rite?
me.
12:26 AM
oh yar... today i parade commander again.. as in morning assembly onli la... fer the rest of this week too i guess... actually i planned to haf mine on my birthdae.. so since im doing this week (supposedly gadis's turn i think) , gadis will replace me fer my week.. except for the first dae! coz it will be my birthdae!.. haha.. my birthdae command....haha.. todae my commanding had more control..;).. better than yesterdae la.. .. haha.. barissediayah! so fast... nervous la ha... then todae ... better... except that i had to stand here longer as the departing teachers give their speech... yea... haha... ok la... ill go sleep now....
me.
8:44 PM
im at home now... and i cant believe im washing my no 1 onli now.. im like so dead... oh wells... i hope my no 1 wont die in the dryer... as in seriously... blah blah.. im such a lazy person.. oh yar.. i got demerited for watching a movie in class just now... there was no teacher and it was like free period lor... shesh mann.. oh wells... nvm... haha.. it was a damn sadistic movie tho... abt these few pple who got caught and sent to this island... they are teens anyway... yea.. so they haf this collar which will kill them all on the last dae they are there.. the objective of the game is to kill everyone and be the ultimate survivor or Everybody will die... so its like one alive or none at all... then they were like showing how each of them get killed by their own frens.. haha... im not so sadistic la... but i just went to watch and i was waiting for the ending... which i didnt get to because a teacher caught us...
well just now i stayed back to do my emaths hmk and did not get to finish it... im planning to not sleep tonite.. just do my hmk while waiting for my uniform to wash and dry and me iron... and also prepare all the things i need to bring ... haiz... tmw will be leaving class at 10 again.... damn i wish i can find my honour glory....
oh yar... yesterday.. (or was it todae during class?)... i dreamt abt the US trip.. somehow i could go again but its like a repeat of everything.... as in time thingy.. ok wadever.. then its like the people haf to get to know me again and everything and it was weird la... because it was a dream and a lot of things were twisted (like somehow one person who is not exactly supposed to be there was there) so i wasnt happy at all... haiz... i really miss US.. and the people there.. and the sirs and snrs and usm and sec3s who went with me.. and mam...yea... haiz... evrytime in a bus ah.. ill be like thinking "good morning ladies and gentlemen, this is your captain speaking.." wadehell rite.. anyway i realised how come i looked better in the pictures in the US trip.. as in you shld see the pics i took with Rupini's cam... well i looked good la.. anyway its because.. i didnt haf a single care in me.. no worries... just happiness and i looked forward to everyday... i came back home and thigns are like so dull and worrying.... hmk... school... haiz.... there's no time to take a deep breath of clear and clean air... i miss the weather and air there.. so... clean... but im very patriotic... i love Singapore.. so i wont migrate... but maybe when i grow up and make my career as a fashion designer big, ill make a house there!.. haha.. but over there got no cat... dang..
anyway im gonna go do hmk and prepare no 1... nitez...
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
me.
10:31 AM
in class now... bio.... well now ive changed places already... sitting at the back now.... so she cant reali see.. hehhe so bad ah hidayah... i just need to stay awake la... anyway yesterday had syf...
ok.. i was being too snappy... but i dunno.. just felt things shld be more.. proper... fer one thing is that we are crescent.. and we were wearing no 1... no 1 lei... sighs... and yar....i was always with the cedar pple..... coz rupini was there la... then we keep on talking abt US... hahaaha... miss her man... like shes a good fren.. just 10 daes and i can really trust her... the credar crescent rival thing doesnt matter to us really... like the most that we talk abt is not abt ncc.. ok abt ncc but nothing abt our "secrets"... well shes great la... in US i talk a lot but then when i talk abt crescent ncc, she wld stop me like give me signs in case i blurt anything out... as in when i talking to sirs or wadeva la....
well.. saturdae is 1st july... so yar... the real thing will be very VERY soon... i REALLY hope... that... the .. standard.. will be ... better... as in.. crescent la... i got annoyed and a little sad because of our behaviors.. thats kinda why i was being snappy.. ok hidayah, dont be snappy!! okla.. before my teacher scolds me... byuez..
me.
8:29 AM
you know... this sux...like... i wish the us tirp didnt end... i shall remember it always...
well... i never thought going back home would be such a drag... like i missed being in Singapore where im sure of where im going and where i am... and if i get lost, the onli thing i need to do is to look for the nearest mrt station... i didnt miss my family... i missed NCC tho...
i missed our own drills... its so different there! but then... i really learnt something important there and also during the obs and malay trail.. ok la... the whole of this june....
ENCOURAGEMENTS, TEAMWORK and SINCERITY
well... the thing that really made an impact on me was ENCOURAGEMENT... sincerity is when giving the encouragement la... .. encouragements...
i dun usually need much encouragement coz i know i can do it...... like rock climbing... its do-able and i could do it... but i didnt realise how important encouragement is until i was 3/4 on my way up when there was nobody even communicating with me and i felt so alone... well i reached the top anyways... but i didnt feel good for myself.. so what i reached the top... it was not a happy feeling... same thing goes for my kayaking expedition... ouch man ouch...
in the malay trail, tho we didnt know each other, we worked together well and like we were having fun too... teamwork... u will know that its teamwork when everybody's in it and even tho u didnt win anything, you will feel happy... well it was great... and i made frens with one girl from err... forgot oraidi.. but she is my junior! as in pioneer la... and u know what?... she lives rite behind me! hahaa...
thennn... us trip...... there's too much to say... but the reason i made this blog is to tell abt my life... as in the events going arnd my life that i think i shld share...
i know i talked a lot abt wadever guys in US.. but now..... this is what i wan to really tell pple abt the US trip... what i learnt....
sincerity in giving encouragements... i tell you ah... i was amazed at how friendly the people are there and tho they also didnt know each other, they got close really easily... whenever somebody haf done their test they will clap for them and give high 5s.. and all that... its very sweet to be given encouragements and know that i haf frens that i can trust to give me a push when i need it... as in seriously... this things cannot be found in singapore.. as in i dun see it here... the teamwork... the innocence in every cheer... even in sports dae... out of the whole lot of people, onli a few are doing it whole heartedly.. the rest they cheer for the sake of cheering... so sadd
anyway there's more to the us trip than how i say it here.... maybe ill post another post ALL abt it! haahahehe... got a lot to sayy.. hehe
dayahh
Sunday, June 25, 2006
me.
4:41 PM
well... back.... what shld i write abt
well got the OBS that i shld write abt but since it was like so long ago it might as well not...
the retarded malay trail that may not be of your interest... oh well...
and the US trip... which ... i hope will go on well... and yar! SPEC course...
i think ill write abt spec course.....
wells..... spec course... was... so ... damn... slack!!! i hate it!!!! i expected it to be much tougher lor!!! dammit la...it was not... well.. special....
when the AAR rite.. i complained to RSM abt that.. hehe...the guys arnd me was like "your juniors will hate you.." i was like .. "u thinkla.. is this spec course?"....
well..tho i didnt go fer camp feast... the others were like saying that it was more slack than camp feast la.. -_-""
well... i was hoping to get awards but i din get any.. wadeshit... nvmla ha... but then .. well... i still felt.. like i won coz... i believe i got the respect frm the rest.. as in guys...
i hope so la...
well i was strict when i was the ic... and well... i guess... i wasnt too... retardedly strict...
well... i think i was in good terms with the guys coz i didnt totally ignore them...
retarded man.. as in if u just stayed there so straight and a guy waves his hand at your face... if u dun react then relli stupid la...
fer me that didnt happen but i remembered one of my NCO.. i fergot who said it... u can still be friendly evn tho u haf your arms straight when u sit... correct wad.... i tok to the guys and defended any type of mockery by giving them the "serious look" but then still talk with grace... like a lady?.,. well... i learnt that technique of getting respect thru spec course...
as in you intimidate a person by just using your eyes and talk in i dunno.. some graceful way... its scary... but nice... hahaha....
well... i know one guy totally got scared of me... ok maybe not totally but well this is what happened..
i was walking outof the camp... i passed by the BRAVO company abt to be bersurai then i just said "goodbye sir, mams and ..coursemates.."... one guy was like "YOU"RE THE MAN!".. -_-"'
well he was like that since previously but then still...
thennn.. i passed by a few guys and they were like "ready ready! hahaha" i was like... (beacause i got confused fer the field signals and i taught them that then it was like a joke to them la.. wadehell)\
then i stopped walking... i turned and gave a solid vicious angry look to one of the guys there... well.... its not like i can give them a punch or what as in they wont be scared of a girl giving them a scary look rite?...
well the guy making that joke got scared... he actually went to walk behind me then he called out "crescent girl!.." i turned "sorry ah" and he ran away and his frens laughed at him... i was like... okayyyy.... ritee... well... im not sure why he did that but... ya.. why did he?...
well lotsa guys asked me if i got wad 2nd sgt or 3rd.. then they will go like "obviously 2nd... duhh"
haiz... i wish i won an award... actually i didnt think it was important at all... didnt even know my previous NCO won something... oh wells..
haha... that time when i was looking fer the guy who was supposed to be best cadet fer bravo 3 then i asked "hu is supposed to be the best bravo 3./.. he needs to go meet themm".. one guy was like "you lah!" "i wish! where ah?" yea...
and did i tell you mam wenting was there??? haiz... she never change.... you know.. she was the one giving the revision fer trainfire... all the rifle things.. how ironical.. she got scolded once fer banging the rifle on the floor coz it was jammed... the part then she was trying to show double feeding was funny... hahahhha.. okok...
and then rite... during bunk check... one girl got nosebleed then she use her walkietalkie to call fer help.. then they canno hear each other... then she keep on saying "NOSEBLEED LA NOSEBLEED".. damn funny.... hhaa...
well.s.... i know quite some pple were expecting me to bring back awards.... oh wells....
it doesnt matter much really... whatever i get as a specialist laterr.. i just hope i can help to bring back that elite era...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
me.
11:33 PM
this okayy.. i think ill stick to this skin/.... oh wells... its so late now.... i got so much to say! .. abt OBS/.. abt the malay trail thing.... abt spec course... haiz.. i better sleep first though... already 11 plus.. .. haiz...i think i wanna go running tmw... morning la.... but i wan to sleep till 3 pm!! haha... my best record fer the latest time to wake up.... oh wells.. ill blog laterrrr
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
me.
9:05 PM
lalala... finally ...haiz... i think ill change the skin...hmm
me.