12:34 PM
ok.. yestreday... AAD was boring... like i didnt do anything la... didnt even go fer the breakdancing workshop.. for what sia... then i was going arnd doing nothing with Nabihah... saw a lot of Snrs... saw Snr Fauziah.. greet her then dao her... why?.. too lazy to talk if there was anything to talk abt anyways.. then...
oh yar... guard of honour-ing... we waited fer like 45 mins fer the Minister to come.. so tiring.. then my hands got tired while waitng for the dance to finish... i tell u ah... the malay dance part is so... insulting sia... like ok fine i dun care if the dancers are chinese or wad but the costume and dance was.... yea.. insulting... like tak cukup kain ke hape?? then i remember last yr my fren asked me "is this how the malay costume looks like?" i was like NOoo.. then the dance like so..boring sia.. as in the malay dance.. didnt even look like malay dance... i was from malay dance before okayy.. so i knoww.. hhahah.. i remembered the expression on Sir wilson's face when i said that im from malay dance... haha..
then.. went back to HQ to give back the rifles... stripped it .. assembled it.. oiled it.. then went back for AAD..oh wells.. then boredomm..
then just hang arnd.. paid(wasted) 5 bux to straighten my already straight hair... actually yar.. my hair is straight with waves at the end... i like it that way... nahh.. i dun like straight hair... but i hate perming too.. haha.. today i woke up and my hair was back to wad it was.. well i like it.
okay.. then.. wells... nothing much is happening in my life... well ROD will be tmw... am i excited? i dunno... actually.. tmw will matter to me.. siala... i can still remember my part A life... now im part C... time just passes by huh?.. yea... well... who knows whats gonna happen tmw..
its a good thing i didnt hold on to the rose as hard as a i held on before... im cleverer than that... well... arigatou gozaimasu anyway... for helping me realising myself again... im stronger than i thought i am...
Sunday, July 30, 2006
me.
5:21 PM
wednesday
i pon school. why? coz i woke up late.why? coz i stayed up until 4am. why? coz i was doing the 10,000 word essay? why? if i dun Captain John Leong will kill me. why? coz in the IC for this. why do i bother? coz if i dun i wont get the ICEP badge. so? i dun have any other freaking badge! why? coz i never go for any other courses at all. why? How wld i know???? actually i know la... must give her pple chance ma... but oh wells...
then on wednesday.. i made my IC, made new specs, and met rupini at hq to pass up the freaking essay. hhahah.. was supposed to meet at 545 until become 715 then we met... its ok la... tho i waited for her, i was the one late just now... hha. okayy
thursday..
nothing much.. had reahersal... boring.. brought full uniform tho we were supposed to bring half.. nobody tell us wad.. then we had to do it in sch u... not very nice and the banging like shit coz we use track shoes.. then had to use imaginary rifle coz not enuf... wadehell rite?....
then after that got like talk "nonsense" session.. then like.. well...THat was the very last bersurai... and it took a long log time sia... thenn... yar... im not too sad... as in... this is not so saddening to me... ok i dunno la.. hahah... maybe im becoming emotionless like syafiq... oh wadehells... then go home, slept.. cannot help it.. woke up this morning...
today..
ok todae.... nothing happened... i signed up for breakdancing.. ahhaha.. i dunno how to breakdane thats why! haha.. invited rupini, yitong (ok she stillhaven pick up my call) and syafiq... syafiq not coming... rupini not sure... i just hope i wont be alone tmw... shld i invite the sirs?.. haha.. oh wells...
blah blah.. nothing happened.. tmw... must go sch damn early... must prepare no 1.. and i wonder if i am supposed to do the CG thing any more.. myname not in... oh wells... ok la... tahts it for now.. byuez
70% sad, angry, dissappointed and arghhh30% smiling ;)))
Friday, July 28, 2006
me.
12:04 AM
ok... what happened on thursday? well... nc... last activity as cadets... well.... hmm... i was i dunno... it didnt make a huge impact on me... hmphh... she didnt even come... oh wells,.. it doesnt matter rite?.. or at least not to her...
what made me feel good was our banginng... solid bin solidd.. haha... yar,.. like.. bersurai.. so solid.. the last time we get bersurai.... sighh... we taking over on monday... monday... like... 5 days left...
taught the part as marhcing... well.. they very behind time la... but ok lor... just hope they understand...
then ok lor.. what happened todae... tennis again... my shots got no power sia... ok got power la... but then no space... then got power but no control and no spin.. bad sia... but i like backspin! nice...
then GOH practice... good la.. i got good view of the parade sq and everything... but the lion dance the drum like rite beside me la.. damn painful sia my ear... sighh.. i remember watching my part A NCO do GOH... well... they showed the standard,..
oh why my it fall?.. from so high? pump it tell you...then must wait wait so long... annoying sia...anyway...i have been very stressed these few days... i cannot tahan any loud unneccessary noise.. like my class always got somebody suddenly make so much noise... i cannot tahan ill just shout for them to shut up.. then debbie wld stop me.. i \stress la... then shout and screeam so much for what sia... arghhsighh.. soryy for losing my top.. but seriously lei... shut uo la... ok.. gtg... bye...[
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
me.
11:11 PM
yesterday night... no.. i mean today morning.. as in today MORnING.. i stayed awake just doing my essat but u know what?.. i died at 4am... and got alive again at 5 30.. very shit la.. i got to finish up to 5.7k onli.. so the sadd rite?.. then sir wilson also... 5.8k... shit la.. i just died there... cannot tahan already sia... then met sir wilson at his bus stop.. purposely go his direction one la.. in case meet him then yar lor.. haha... he actually forgot to wear his glasses coz he rushed down.. coz he dun wan to be late any more.. ya la.. made me wait for an hour one rite?.. then we just burnt everything into the cd in the train lor... very fast.. then talk talk talk... well was supposed to go get breakfast first, but then syafiq go cancel coz he got school at 9am... oh yar,.. then on the way to hq me and sir wilson we like talking about Bleach and all the anime stuff and then got wad.. we were singing all the songs.. then he can still sing the annoying wad starting of bleach these few eps... the eng one... damn annoying la.... then wad talk abt bakafish.. hahaha.... like all the sick things like wad the hell la...
then we go hq already.. waited at the junction as in very near hq la.. was waiting for sotong and syafiq.. then when we called him then he say he already in the guard house there.. wad the shit... oh yar.. then sir wilson say he wan to copy from yitong or syafiq for their work la... coz we desperate wad.... i was like.. i dunno la... then like all the way to last minute he still like wan to copy then i just sit there thinking... i just say like "i dunno sir.. like... cannot also.. later thay find out then we die.." .. oh yar.. syafiq looked really diff... like ok maybe not enuf sleep.. oh yar.. he also wasnt wearing his specs..
then we went to the east/west district office to sit there and try to do work.. we showed syafiq the movie sir wilson made.. GREAT JOB SIR! thank you so much for putting in so much effort! ... nice la... but then just not enuf music but who the heck cares?? haha... so crazy la.. ok.. then sat down... sir wilson was looking thru yitongs and syafiq's works.. but then yitong's was like so detailed and nice that like too diff then syafiq one the font too huge... he make like 36 PAGES lei! crazy... so thick la..very weird sia... sit down in the office like nothing... then syafiq was supposed to go his school by 9am rite.. it was already 835am la... like he can take like 45mints to get to sch... like no matter wad he's late already la... then for like 15 minutes ah.. he still never go yet... sir wilson was like "aiyah.. no need la.. so late already.. might as well dun go... like for wad also sia.. just follow us la.. we going beach road buy stuff.. " i just sit there never say anything... then when sir wilson eprsuade again i was like "cannot la.. he USM must go...".. then yar lor... at last he went off.. haha.. he was like.. "i onli have 6 dollars sia..".. we were like siala.. wont get u anywhere sia.. haha.. take taxi.. then he ask "can pay taxi by ezlink" i was like -_-'''' wadehell...
then at alst he just went... then sir wilson finally was like "nvm la.. i be good like you.. lets call capt john".. i was like so freaking scared... thank god ah... capt john gave us till wednesday coz we were freaking busy with the movie thing.. ihelped okayy.. then sir wilson keep on calling me hidayaT,.. its hidayaH sir!.. ok then we went off also.. go Beach Road... but sadly i onli got to buy dist cover and kiwi coz the name tag must wait long long and like wad.. so little of the shops were open.. sir wilson also he said he wanted to buy belt then he say he can just claim so our trip there was pretty much wasted... but then at least can go eat... so we ate and crapped about... then.... suddenly.... the phone rang... bzz bzz.. bzz bzz.. okla.. vibrated... somebody called him to say..
there was no tkd that day... he was like wadehell coz he was bringing arnd a drill for that day and its freaking heavy...then some more he was supposed to waste time then go sch for that at 12... so like wasted la.. he could haf gone home to sleep... well he was really sleepy la... more sleepy then i was...
then on the way home. like ALL THE WAY from lavender, he was sleeping.. so funny i tell you!.. he was finally quiet.. like all the time he like a machine gun will talk talk talk.. but then this time the machine gun no ammunition, cannot talk.. then his head like move so much then got one time he almost like sriously hit somebody then i tapped at his bag and said "sir!.. almost hit her.." then he was like sorry... then slept back.. like he can like go "yea" then blink then sleep again lor... then when he tilt his head back rite, his mouth will open one.. so sad i didnt get to take a pic of that.. then i took like three pics of him sleeping..if he wasnt asleep i wont get to take pic .. haha... i was laughing in the train la.. then whenever i laugh laugh he will wake up then sleep again.. haha.. good la.. at least that is the first time he like stayed quiet for like super long...
and i can happily listen to my ipod while he sleeps.. hhaha.. ya la sir.. you learnt the art of sleeping in class but now must learn the art of sleeping in the train... haha...
then got home.. wanted to just sleep la.. then got to know that my gramps was sick.. then got scared la... then went to his hse he was much better already... then good la.. he okay... then i slept at their hse... i tell u ah.. if u got to my grandpa and grandma hse ah.. must sleep one.. ilke there will always a period of tim when u wld sleep.. but then ah.. was so freaking tired that i slept like from 2 all the way to 7 lor... 5 hrs... well now shld be doing the essay but then i still got tmw so yar... im gonna sleep now i think... or jsut day dream.. i mean night dream.. oh wad the shit...ok.. byuez
Hidayahhhhhhhhhhhh
Saturday, July 22, 2006
me.
8:32 PM
ok.... main highlights of yesterday...
TENNIS!!
i just LOVE tennis... tho what we played for PE was mini tennis and i mean MINI... but oh wells it was still fun... the onli nice move that i made was the backhand smash... and one more point that i scored.. haha.. nice mann.. but wad the shit.. the area was so freaking small we cant even play properly.. yala.. me and yen fang keep on complaining abt the space...and it was freaking hot... i was perspiring like wad lor.. but it was nice sia... haha.. then after that drank A LOt .. haha.. ok next!!
ICEP MEETING
oh wad the shit la... onli four pple came.. me, sir wilson, yi tong and sir james. .. sir james also he had to leave early.. but good la... i got ALL the pictures now HAHAHA.. yay!... but then right... we did the ppt slides and everything until 8pm lor..at national library some more.. and i live at boon lay... my mom called me la then she asked
"who are you with?"
"im with yi tong and sir wilson"
"sir wilson?"
"ya.. sir wilson"
pause..
"si wilson"
"yes... and yi tong"
haha.. oh wad the shit... then like sir wilson's com keep on hanging... too much files i guess.. and spyware wad thing... i was like dying there la... then until the last part ah.. i was like wan to die already... coz the music cannot play.. then cannot upload the videos.. then keep on crashing.,.. i was like almost crying already thne suddenly........... almost at the end......... his com confessed to him that it loves him!!! as in.. it finally worked for him la... music can play... the crashing lessen,.. still cannot upload videos but not too bad already... ya la.. coz when his com crashed i said that it doesnt like us then he sai not it doesnt like us.. it doesnt like HIm.. oh well.... then...
ok i went there at 230pm.. finshed at 815pm... how long did i stay there?... hmm... 5 hours plus... wow... thats the longest i stayed in a library.. haha... but i got borrow books okayy... i shld read more la... oh yar,... read more malay books also...
ok wad else?...RHD? boreeenng... yea... todae very boring sia... well i sent for amaths remedial and i slept but mr loh finally did something abt it.. he go and slam on the table then wake me up... haha.. i shld really sit in fornt... how can u make me sit at the last row???? ill just sleep more la...oh wells..
ok then... nothing more la. ok bye!
...
Friday, July 21, 2006
me.
6:06 PM
sighh.. my mom scolded me for doing too much ncc stuff... as in i use too much of my time doing them... then she nag nag nag...i just keep quiet then look straight to her eyes when she scolded me... until there was one time she accidently pause... haha.. okla... like for me.. whenever anybody scold me and i know im not totally in the wrong or wad, ill look straight up to that person... i dunno la.. sorry.. i just feel like if somebody scolding u, you shld not like look down rite?.. unless u really are in the wrong... like that time my malay hmk... i really loko down when ms saifa scolding me.. coz u know why?.. i take malay seriously.. like my sciences, my teacher scold me or chase me for my hmk i dun feel much.. oh wells...
ok... yesterday however.. not a bad day la... ok finished school dang early... my sis wnted to watch movie with her frens and tho i tried to help her ask mama, mama didn let her.. and that kinda costed me a bit of my mom's trust on ME... like she was like "you better not come home so late later ahh" i was like "im doing WORk! i wont take that long anywayy.." then yar lor... went to JE library.. went to the kids corner... the tables so small then my handwriting change because it was too low for me...thenn... i had superglue on my fingers... then...oh yar... please man.. if you know your ringtone is funny, change can onot! so annoying sia.. got this person ah.. like twice she got call then the song so funny and weird.. so loud some more... i was giggling a bit la.. haha....
ok. todae.. nothing much happened.. i ran slowly... ok i was slow at the first part la.. but thenlike my legs just brought me off .... so i ran quite fast.. the reason i ran faster is probably because i saw pple walking so i felt angry then i ran faster than them lor..... like arghh.. then zoooomm.. haha.... well.... then.. wad to talk abt ah?... my life rite now not so the bubbling with action... sighh.. ok... hmk time.... sighh
i forgot to add about reap todae... well asilah was happily distracting pple with the buzzer thing.. haha.. her expression was priceless sia... i had to cover half my head witht the hood so i wont see her. crazy sia.. then we like saw the year book for the year.. 1985.. like so long ago la please... saw mr siow.. mr samat in it... haha.. like 20 years ago.. they had hair! hahaha... then the room got freaking cold la... then wear my jacket lor... i just love my citadel sweater! hahah... i wonder why i cant take the cold well.. last time can lor... like everytime pple so cold then they come to me looks at me at a weird way.. touch my hand then say "why u so hot??" ill be like..." huh?" then they wld want to hold me hands... oh wells.. now i cant seem to take the cold... oh wells... ok thats it..
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
me.
4:23 PM
ok...yesterday... wad happened.... ok lets see..
i was supposed to be at boonlay mrt station to meet Sir Wilson at 630 am.. so i reached there at 625am... so yar.. waited.. and waited,... tried calling him and he wouldnt pick up his phone.. saw a Snr... from delta04.. didnt recognise her at first.. then after some time she pass by me then i was like "snr?" she nodded then i said " oh sorry, snr" coz i didnt recognise her before... then like i called every few minutes... then i was getting angry la... then at 715 am... he picked up his call.. he said he will be late.. then i asked him where he was then he said he was still at home.. well i almost shouted at him.... but cannot one rite? then i was just like "WHHA?? (supposed to be what??)" then ya lor.. he rushed all the way. then i had to do the work in his com because there was no thumbdrive... i was like dying there la... then my arms were hurting coz i had to hold up the com while doing... there were so many pics la...
then we were like freaking late la... haha... sir wilson was holding my bag for me and he keep on asking "you bring millitary bag isit? how many rifles inside ah?" onli got my extra clothes and my laptop wad...that one already so heavy ah?... u try bringing my school bag la... shesh.. haha.. then we ran to the 245 block.. then they say they already in the council room la... then we had to RUUUUNNN again.. dying there... and the greatest thing was.... his com died when we got there... how grea rite?... then had to do everything all over again.. but we onli show the commandant pictures la... other than my slides and yitongs one that is.. coz sir jonathan didnt come... dunno why... oh wells... i seriously wanted to put that "kissing" video la.. but then sir NAdzri was like "omg... omg... im so screwed... that was soo wrong... " then sir shamsul was like "omg yarr.." then sir nadzri was like "who told you to sleep?" i was like harharhar... then he say "omg.. i get demoted one la.. " i was lke haha then i said "sir.. you seriously wan to take that out ah.. thats the onli funny the really funny!" as in i said the last sentence softer la.. then he pause.. then he say "actually okla..." but then at last we didnt put it in but then got one pic he posing like he kissing sir shamsul la... then i dun think Commandant was looking but we quickly change... but sir james was like laughing... hahaha... but sad la... i was the onli one wearing no 4... the rest wear no3... i didnt know that guys can wear a no3 at all unless they are CLT? wells.. then after that we finish already...
then we were all like wanna go out eat onot... sir nadzri also.. but then at last never la.. sir wilson also had to go to sch.. he going for tkd wearing no3 lei! then i changed and went to eat at macs at je... finished all my money coz i gave it to the cip pple... oh wells... oh yar... did i say i haf to make sure pple come down twice next week?... yea... so now ive got everybody's number! prank call! no la... haha... but then so hard sia... like everybody so busy... but confirm saturday haf to go la.. thursday almost confirmed but then ill have to excuse myself from nc activity lei... but cannot help it rite?.. if i in charge then i never go wad the shit is that... anyway i haf to finish like 10,000 words essay by saturday... well some pple haf to finish by thursday.. well too bad... ill be the onli girl on saturday again... sighh.. rite now... still need to contact sir lujie and snr devesh.. pick up your phones! shesh... ill haf to check out with CPT John again whats gonna happen.. oh wells... i better finish doing all this by tonight or else they thursdays or saturdays might be taken up already...
ok then rite.. i wan forced to go alaturka with my family.,. we like busted around 100 bux ... but then throughout the time i went there and when i was having dinner and before that i was like calling, smsing and worrying at the same time.. as in i call pple for their schedules la... so dang busy abt it..... ok so yar.. we ate and ate... the bake rice pudding thingy was nice tho...
ok then todae.... woke up early .. ok 930 is early for me la... then did a lot of chores.,. then did the 10000 word essay.. onli 2k for now.... then called pple... sms pple... abt next week la... sir lujie is he onli one who never reply la... arghh.. i didnt even do my hmk... oh wells.. actually i think i can do my hmk later but then like wont be concentrating la... ok... then i jsut got back home from my granpa hse... watched the mummy returns... just love their fighting scenes.. reminded me of how i really wanted to learn how to fight... so funn.. haha.. ok now im tired.. im almost done with the next week stuff... so yar... anyway ill be back soon in a more energised mood... so byuez..
are we better off friends?.. was it my imagination?.. that i meant something to you?... or am i really nothing?... shoudl i let go of you?.. coz i dun wan to.... am i talking too much?... then the onli things i shld really say and hope it gets to you is that.....i love you...
Sunday, July 16, 2006
me.
1:33 AM
so late at night ... i had just finshed doing the ppt slides for the presentation tmw.. tmw lor.. so shit.. so last minute.. so retarded.... good thing i didnt haf to finish my 10,000 word essay la.. ill be so dead if i had to... anyway yi tong helped me a lot... her way of making ppt slides is just so good.... oh wells.. then rite.. i think tmw will be the last time we cn ever meet la... so stupid lei... tmw like so many pple cannot come... and im supposed to do my CIP but then i had to cancel it... shit la... then like 5 pple already confirm not going Rupini, Yi Tong, Syafiq, Snr Ziyang, sir Shamsul... like wadehell la... ok great... ill be the onli girl there... dammit.... my mom is not letting me meet the us members ever again after this lei... shit.. so like i dun haf like my saturdays to meet them... sighh... this week has not been very nice to me... my birthday week lei! sighh...
ok anyway todae... say.. wad happened ah?... oh...i ran damn slow for mass run todae.. too lazy and i hate to run pass the snrs... as in ya la.. ajinomoto and B... coz u know why? after that ill feel insulted... they walk for mass run la... then when i run pass them i feel so like i neer accomplish anything... so it sux la... so i ran like damn slow... then after that.... hmm
well sue wei tried to keep me awake for a maths by amssaging my hand... well it wasnt her, it was mr loh... he's like my sand man lei... you know when the sand man puts sand into your eyes then u get sleepy?.. yea... then after that... oral..
yea.. oral...
it went quite fast... Ma'am Karen Tan was my examiner... i was scared la... she used to teach me eng.. but surprisingly she was very nice... well she was smiling all the way then at the last part as in when i finished, she sayi haf to lighten up.. i was so tense... i tell u ah.. that was my not so tense mode lei.,.. i actually put one elbow onto the table while taling abt the picture as in picture conversation... then i talked more light heartedly lei... like i just crapped!! haha.,.. okla..i gonna go sleep a bit.. then MUST wake up early,... 630am must be at Boonlay mrt... okla.. nitez
must you avoid me until like this?.. i miss you so much and just wish to see you...
Saturday, July 15, 2006
me.
10:23 PM
oh yar... forgot about this.. i ran 2.4 todae! and well... with this... i get straight As for my PFT!! haha... yay for me! okla.. like to think my timing last time was like wad.. fail.. now my timing was 14.08! haha.. good la... but last time i had debbie pulling so i got 14.05... should try to get 11 mins... haha... thats sijing la... damn fast for wad also dunno.. haha.. well i was running... got motivation la... hahaha.. was imagining all the motivation i got from US .. as in those pple whom i dun even noe cheered me on and snr devesh and sir nadzri... they encouraged me thru the run there... hha.. 1.6 i ran so slow... coz of the morning weather la.. so cold i cannot breathe properly... anyway i remembered how the other sirs wld pass by me then smile then go... then i remember syafiq got run with me at some point of time then i was onli thinking "dun let him beat you!" well he did la.. haha... then snr devesh got one point jus slapped me twice on my back to encourage me,... thx snr... then andrea and alpha was encouraging us 3S1 also.. so retarded la.. "ole ole ole!!" (refer o our share-a tot)... thanks mann.. they VOLUnteer lei! so nice rite?... candice also.. haha... my motivation very funny! ok nvmm.. nvmm....i was smiling throughout the whole run.... hehehehe...
then at the last stretch rite... i sprinted la.... but then at that moment rite... i felt like... not pucking la.. but i somehow i didnt feel anything.... i didnt feel any pain... tho i felt so hot because of the weather before that, i didnt feel any heat... i know hui xin was running a bit to cheer me on but then i didnt like see her.. like everything was nothing.... i onli felt the wind pass by me and my legs almost flying... as in i dunno la.... like i was in my own space... i didnt think any more.. i didnt feel anything... like for that moment everything was out of my mind... just me, my strength (speed)... okla.. i was thinking abt one thingla... one thing onli.. ok maybe two... one... i was thinking tat im advancing so damn fast and the wind... like i was somehow so damn focus at taht time.... then other thing i was thikning abt was...
you...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
me.
9:08 PM
freak... i screwed up for THE INTERVIEW... oh wells lets no broad over that...
ill talk abt what happened on WEDNESDAY!... my very drama day.. haha.. share-a-thought... A-MAh... hahha.. ok i wasnt the grandma.. but i was the irresponsible grand-daughter that left her grandma to go to the movies...then the grandma kena rob then killed... hahaha.. ok that part not funny but the whole thing .. as in as a whole was damn funny... and last part i very drama.. supposed to be ma... my grandma supposedly die lei... haha... but i love my real grandma la.. she always remembers my fav food! ikan bilis sambal! haha .. as in.. anchovies(spelling?) and sambal?.. ok im not some malay-eng-malay dictionary so wadehell!! haha... oh yar! we got gotcha award for that you know! and the teachers were like all saying we were GOOD... hahha.. and to think we did it in one dae.... good thing i remembered my lines la.. not much actually... i tell you ah! my fren LENA go and seriously pull me until i fell sia.. wadehell... haha.. but okla.. make it more funny... but the soccer part was NICE... GO UMA!!! PLAY FOR SINGAPORE!!! hahaha.. singapore vs france... HAHAHA sia.... oh yar... i like this.... "erm.. goal?" HAHAHA...
then after that. nothing much la... but i dunno why i was so damn tired that when i went home like after everything (pray.. eat... beathe... etc) i was so tired my mom told me to take a nap.. guess how long my nap is? TEN HOURS! wadehell rite?.. i didnt get to do any hmk... but then i woke up in the middle of the nite but then i didnt know the time so yar.. i convinced myself taht it was nearing 5am so yar slept back... my phone fell down from my bed la... as in double decker then i sleep on the top bunk so yar.. fell down then i dunno what time... i seriously need a watch sia... yea... i need a watch!
ok.. then change subject to wad happened todae..
ok... school was great coz had like four free periods.. yea... then more impt... ncc..
had THE INTERVIEW... i screwed up... like duh i will rite?.. like argh! im not even supposed to say anything abt it... oh wells...
but after that had captain's ball.. i kena one part a then we both fell down.. haha... my position when i fell down was like as if i was doing push ups la... then as per normal they were like saying abt me looking like as if i know yoga.. i dunno yoga! i wan to learn but no time oh wells.. then ... they pltnmates sang me a birthday song.. belated one la... and oh yar! they bought me a cake!
but small piece la.. hehe.. thx you guys...and the song was for wangjin la.. her bdae on sat ma... HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE! haha... then... yalor.. went home so late..coz we were eating at Cheers.. i prefer Mobil lei... as in the word mobil.... club mo... wadehell
ok.. thats it... well im still freaking annoyed abt just now.. but nvmm
thanks for being there to listen... your voice is like a birhday present to me... hehe
me.
10:28 AM
well...guess wad... im not going ophir... and i dun haf any course badges... this sux... i wanna go ophir... damn you asilah! i wanted to go ophir since part a la... oh wells... nvm... like it may not be worth it anyways... haha... too bad syafiq... you went at the wrong time .. aiyah.. i wont even be going... nvm lor... at least dun need to pay like 80 bux.. but i didnt go for any course lei! i got no badges! asilah already got sana i think... not fair! ... but at lest i got ICEP badge...as in ill be getting la... and i got ribbons! tho i cannot wear themm... haha... oh wells... it will be in september anyways... ill need the holiday.. haha.. ok la... im in class actually.. typing iwthout internet... ill post this post later... i think.... sighhh...
i wanna go ophir!! ledang... haha
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
me.
9:36 PM
CRESCENTIANS ARE THE GODDESSES OF DAWN..
ok...haha.. funny.. ok anywayyy.. wad happened todae?.. ok in the morning was in the same bus as Shafiq.. i got hit his leg a bit and you know wad he did? he hit me on my shoulder with his a maths book! idiot... aiyah.. all the time also he say im very comical... wadeva haha... he all the time will brag abt him wearing no1 la.. no 5 la... idiot...ok then we didnt talk much in the train.. but one time he was like "got smoke smell?" and he like blew a bit.. good thing dun haf.. or else ill be like wanting to punch him.. i HATE smokers... i dun hate him la.. as in.. as long as the person is a good person then nvm la... he okla.. good person.. ok not VERY good but then oh wells... haha.. then i was like "shafiq, say happy birthday hidayah." then he was like "huh?.. happy birthday hidayah?" then i wa slike "thank you" haha... ok comical.. wadehell...
ok.. then school... Dlite was showing me her ouran pics... i wish i was there! and she also cosplayed la... as yoruichi lei!! damn nice i tell you.. haha.. i love her wig... and her katana! hhaha... ok then we were talking abt wad if i dun follow her down to get her bag she wont let me have my treat then i was like wad? then she was like "your treat la( cuttlefish.. birthday prez)" then i was like rite... then she was like trying to be like tamaki-sama and she was like hold my china bit then said "then what kind of a treat did you think?" i was like HAHAHAHAHAHAHA CANNOT MAKE IT!!! ok la.. didnt mean it as an insult... but so funny.. hahaha... then we were bioth trying to be like tamaki.. haha.. funny!! haha..
ok then got the council investiture... correct spelling? oh wells... quite a bore... then malay mock test. there wasnt even a teacher la.. it wasnt too hard i guess.. then got practice for tmw's share-a-thought.. haha.. ill be acting... hahaha.. then the last part im supposed to be very drama.. hahahahaha.. ok yall will see me tmw.. haha.. i wonder what to wear... oh wells... jeans and some shirt la... oh wells.. ok lor... thats it...
oh yar.. you know ah.... i realised that people who are not very close to me ould think of me to be very manly... like yea la... tomboy? then pple who are close to me like my pltnmates ah. they think im bimbo... ok like totally opposite rite?... but im not bimbo!! im not really manly either! hahha wadehell.. sporty?.. i cannot pass as that coz i dun like soccer.. haha... soory shadiq! i dun like soccer so stop talking abt it so much! its getting anoying! gawd... well i dunno... i dun like pink.. i hate pink! .. red's more of my colour... dark red ... red... maroon... i dunno... but im yea.. more red than pink.... well.. my fav colours are
RED,
BLACK, PURPLE, WHITE... im not really blue tho my email got blue there.. but i LOVE cats!! haha... actually i like green too.. but in camo colour la...camo is so nice! haha... but i dunno.. my colours are more goth.. goth?.. i dunno la.. actually i know myself more... i saying dunno now coz i wan yall to think.. was am i? .. i am...mystique...YMEN!!!remember ymen? haha.. so pri 6 mann... we all shld haf watched xmen3 together siaz... but yar... pple think im Shadowcat... well shadowcat not bad la but then i prefer Mystique... hahha.. ok la... i go now la... ybuez...
do you know me well enough?....
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
me.
11:14 PM
ok im back!! haha.. ok la... what happened todae.. hmm
it starte out very bad.. i was late and it was raining.... i was feeling a little sick.. but rupini cheered me up a bit by wishing me happy birthday... she is officially the one who remembered and wished me happy birthday first... yea.... thanks darling..
ok... then... went to sch...got a great surprised from SHERLY.. she remembered my birthday dammit and i didnt! omg im so bad!! then debbie was like saying sorry coz she couldnt get a cake fast enuf.. iwas like its okay man... as in seriously... and she gave me a black cat magnet! i love it! but i wished it was a pin coz later i can pin on my bag or something ma... nabihah gave me a punch on my arm.. im not gonna give you a ferero roche for that! ahah.. ok then i got freaking lots of headaches... slept during chem (and the teacher can still thank us for being attentive in class.. ok maybe he was sarcastic) then had nc...
nc... hmm.. had to teach part As kiri and kanan belok... actually they were doing well... Shahzwani, Adriani and another ... can la ha for the first try.. but can be improved! haha.. wah lau.. my birthday make me happy nd march properly cann?? haha.. no la... then ma'am mingxi scold us a bit coz we never teach them properly .. as in me, abigail and shermain... then she told me to knock abigails head... i was like "ma'am?" then she say again "knock her head" then i said "no, ma'am".. she repeat and i replied the same way again la... haha then that shermain go and hit abigail's head.. iwas like ehh! then ma'am say "oh you all very united.. nvm.. i help yall do" then she hit all three of us on our shoulders.. shesh.. okayy... then like we discuss on Satay or Static la... it changed again so yar.. must discuss discuss... oh wells....
you know something... after this or next sat, i will never get to see the us members any more sia.. untill december la.. but then... like so long... im gonna miss all the sirs and snrs and usm and all sia... rupini yitong and me can still hang out i guess but not very often either... haiz... oh yar!! Cheif Costa and Colonel Bartels and.. hu ah?.. coming this december!!! omg!! like they're the best.. haha.. cheif costa.. i wonderif they wld wan to see our sch.... or maybe schs...like to see how we conduct and activity?... i wonderr... haha... he come and see all of us... haha... who noes....
okla... i think thats it for now....
the moon weeps as her source of joy stays the distance... she awaits for that time... when an eclipse occur... be in awe, the moon's acme of beauty....
Monday, July 10, 2006
me.
11:08 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! HAPPY BITHDAY TO ** ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMIRAHHHH... HAPPY BITHDAY TO USSSSSS... ok ill coninue my post laterrhaha.. ok crap... anway.. oh shit i cant read wad im writnig
me.
11:56 AM
ok great... i slept at 930 pm yesterday to wake up early to do my hmk todae but i still woke up at 11 plus.. oh wells...i just love to sleep... you know why?.. not because ill miss Amaths lesson thru that but because when i sleep ill dream... and i can manipulate that dream to wadeva i wan.... in real life its much harder... in dreams ill think abt it and it will appear rite before my eyes... cool huh?...
my best dream ever was when i really knew i was in a dream and tho it was weird la... like there was an old lady with a lot of shoping bags who just like drop down (like when we did the jetty jump) from a very high floor and glided down and can still just walk to the road and to the sidewalk without getting hurt and me wanting to do that too but then there was this guy who told me to follow him so i did and we got into his car(which was in his house!on that same level) and we drove down and to road... haha... then i knew it was a dream to to everyone that was there ill fight them and ill kick them hahahaha.. but there was one part when in my dream my sis go and stopped me... haha... ok that was a long time ago..
dreams... the reality is such a nightmare... sigh... tmw is my birthday.. ill be fifteen... fifteen... how do i feel?... i dunno.. nothing really... ive lived in his world for 14 yrs and some months... wad haf i accomplished? is that even the correct spelling?... i dunno when ill die... nobody knows... i might die today.. even before i become 15... you know... its just so sad that if you haf a bright future in front of you and you die right before u go for it... like... what if you really believe you can get something... but then something really stops you.. like death... well... i wan to just tell everybody that i love you guys... my pltnmates..theres 17 of you... yes... all 17 of you.... the US members... Rupini, USM Yi tong, Sir Nadzri, Sir shamsul, Sir Jonathan, Sir Wilson, Sir Lujie, Sir Jason, Snr Devesh, Snr Zi yang and USM Syafiq..... i love all of you guys too... All my OBS frens... who really taught me things... i love you guys...the MALAY trail pple.. hehe.. tho i knew you guys for onli a few hrs, im glad singapore is that small that we met... all my teachers (except one in particular) , i love you guys too... ma'am Ho Li Yi and ma'am Goh i wont dissappoint you coz ill be doing my hmk now! haha.. to show how much i love you all im gonna do my hmk now ahhaa...
this year's june... really changed me... ok not it changed me la but i became more... confident... and i know what i really wan for my future.. the near future and also far far future... i learnt a lot... i hope i can bring it not onli to ncc but also to myself as i grow up... fifteen years eh? fifteen....
before i die.. the person whom i want to see is.. you...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
me.
5:42 PM
ok... back from the meeting... actually since just now la but then onli now i sparing the time to blog abt it.. haha... like onli a few of us came la.. snr devesh.. snr clt nadzri.. clt shamsul.. didnt come... snr ziyang also never come... yes... u heard me right... SNr Ziyang... ok... firstly... congrats SOTONG!!!! for getting.... USM!!!!! omg.. she's usm! dun worry, you can do it one!! hehe..
ok.. we basically went to a food court... discuss who doing what... my com died because i ddint switch it off properly... (you stupid com!!) then yea la.. we did ppt slides for abt an hour.. me and rupini are also in charge of the FUN segment.. hehe... so yar! hhehee.. then thats it lor... went back... rupini had to go.. (she was actually supposed to act for the excel fest thing lor! finals lei! but good thing got replacement) then i was left with a few sirs and sir wilson... he talked a lot... then sir wilson and i ended up having lunch at jp macs... then went back home by arnd 330.... boring rite?... yea... haha...
so.. yar.. nothing much happened... ok something happened la.. but nobody knows... haha... wadehell... anyway im in a good mood.. hehe... wadehell.... AND YAR! the US pple who will be coming in DEc will be going for camp pinnacle... i wanna go!!!! but then if i dun go for that camp nvm la.. will be bringing the pple arnd wad... ok.. nothing else to talk abt... byuez
its the little things that you do that really makes me smile....
Saturday, July 08, 2006
me.
7:33 AM
heyy..okay sorry la... the previous post.. i was feeling emo and stuff.. sighs... anyway yup.. haven been updating.. haha.. busy la.. and on thursdae i went bck home, prayed ate bathed then slept.. didnt even do my hmk la.. hhehe...
ok thursdae what happened?.. We had Nc but no PT no nothing... just CnC while some people were getting INTERVIEWED.. haha... why got no pt?... no part As no part Bs... they had trainfire.. good luck to themm... i miss playing with the rifle... stripping it... holding it.. firing it... ok that does Not sound rite! haha... thenn... we stopped CnCing coz we werent supposed to make noise at all! haha.. got pple having oral la... then we just march march and sit down some times to Discuss... yea. we march march march but then i dunno whats wrong with us sia... suddenly laugh laugh.. shesh... then.. my turn... hehehehehehehe.... what did staff fenghui say?.."lower down your volume".. i was like thinking.. "ermm..cnc lei... lower down my volume?.. erbs... " hahaa... like usually they will say louder! louder!... yeala.. got pple having oral... haha... Randee was standing in front of me as in in the pltn, then she all the time wld cringe when i command because even if not loud i still too loud for her... haha.. sorry la!..
then fridae nothing much happened... the class discussed abt the share-a-thought thing for our class... haha... im acting! hhaahha... that will be weird.... ok not weird la.. ive always acted for stuff... but then i havent recently la...
ok i dunno wad to wear sia... later got meeting... haiz... my com will just die i tell you... as in the battery is retarded.. i use for less than and hour the battery will die... stupid shit la... need to go fo a repair.. my fren say because i use the com while charging..if i dun do that, the battery will die anyways! but meeting the us pple again will be good. i hope...haha.... i cant wait for the endof the yr... not exams! but the US cadets will be coming to Singapore... they will be having a camp.. i dun care! ill be there! coz maybe my fren will be going.. my what-the-hell partner and Bradon... yea.. i hope they'll come..... ok.....
ok what to do now?... actually i shld be doing the ppt slides abt the training but then i got no pics abt the training... qute a lot abt the parade tho... nope .. no training... ok la... i think i did a lot already... as in blog... i gonna go upload pics and stuff... byuez!
ps: hey hey hey... monday's a special day!.. hey hey hey its a special day! everytime on 1007, its a special day! {hahaha.. supposed to follow the gg thinking day song.. hheeh" aiyah.. im used to not getting anything so dun stress la.. haha}
open up my heart.. and cause my lips to speak.. remember remember .. never forget....
me.
1:58 AM
its late at nite and all i think abt is... im crying inside... how can i feel the opposites at the same time?im crying inside...this pain.. im crying inside...why am i crying?... i feel so stupid...im crying inside...im crying inside...im crying inside...do you even care?... i feel stupid asking that...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
me.
3:49 PM
i felt like a nerd bringing home so many books... haf to do hmk ma... i keep on saying i gotta do my hmk.. when will it ever end? actually never.. in fact..more hmks are pilling up... i cant find my emaths textbook!! my calculater is dead! like i am now la... anyway it will be another late nite coz ill be doing amaths till i finish it off.. mr loh got angry at us so yar..evrybody got to pass up everything tmw... and yes.... lit hmk.. the lit teacher very poor thing like that so i gonna do my lit hmk for her... she cannot get angry one la.. so yar... dont make her life difficult la... then got bio also... supposed to be passed up just now but i haven finish... then malay compo... the onli thing i haven pas up la... ok lets list them down..
a maths,
bio,
lit,
malay
eng (compo half done and summary)
ss (haven done but dunno when deadline ..)
emaths (dunno where's the book)
i dunno abt the rest but i know i gotta do these so far... but most important will be bio, amaths, malay and lit... yupz... so i gonna start now.... see i good girl.. hahhaa.....
by the way.. ahem ahem... my cough*birth*cough*day* coming you know.... hahah.... shld i write a wishlist?.. actually thats kinda rude... like ask instead of give... haiz... nvm la... not like pple usually give me gifts for my birthdae!.. humph... anyway im gonna give those whom i know got the same bdae as me a ferero roche.. wadever the spelling is...if i got the money.. haha... oh wells... you know what i want....
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
me.
1:36 AM
its morning already le... but im still doing my hmk... i good girl you know... must do hmk... just hopefully i wont faint for mass run laterr... actually no la.. im not that unfit..
anyway the meeting for the US presentation with sir james and all was cancelled coz not many pple could come... like all the poly sirs cannot come la.. and syafiq had mount ophir... that guy better blog a lot abt it.. haha.. well i most probably going for mt ophir so ya la... but then me.. Rupy and Sotong still went out to discuss abt the presentation and all... we didnt do much la... well we were supposed to meet at 1230 but you know wad time Rupini reached the place? 130... and hour later... i had to wait and hour to wait for her!! and sotong came 30 minutes late.. i was standing there like some stupid person lei! haiz nvm.. then sotong had to leave at 3 so yar... hardly did anything.. and my retarded com died so fast... no batt... oh wells... better let it go for a check up later... hahaha... okla... at least we got to meet for a while...
im bored... i did my eng hmk but haven 100% yet.. like 80% onli... im gonna do the ws Ma'am Ho was telling us to do... no need pass up la but todae got emaths test.. can die sia.. i never study... hope its easy la.. haven even finished my emaths holidae hmk la... ok nvmm... todae after school i stay back... im so damn busy! more busy than last semester... but i hope this can make me be more stress ..as in the healthy type.. and then i can get work hard and all... okla... i better carry on with my work...
im more than what you think...
me.
9:01 PM
eh guess what... i woke up at 2 this afternoon.. hheheh... well it didnt break the record of me waking up at 3 in the afternoon.. hehe.. aiyah... damn tired la... anyway went for belajar just now... after that went to eat.. then i saw nadia!.. u know nadia... ok u dun but gadis and amirah wld.. nadia pioneer pri la... u know.. malay dance... yea... oh wells... then saw cats!.. and kittens!.. ok onli one kitten la but so cute!! i just love cats! hehe.. ok... nothing much to say....
i wish an eclipse would come...
Sunday, July 02, 2006
me.
11:03 PM
haiz...syf finished le... but i got nothing much to miss .. other than getting to wear no 1 la.. well... im exhausted and yar... i woke up late just now... i cant believe i did la...well everybody got angry at me.... haiz,... well i was trying to do my hmk and prepare no 1 yesterdae... i stayed up till 430 lor... and to think i was already tired before that...so sorry pple... im really very sorry ma platoonmates... and also the part bs.. so sorry i made u guys so late.. i promise that this will never happen again... i feel so irresponsible..... sadd :( ..
oh yar.. i wonder what race i actually look like.. well there are always pple who asks me if i can speak malay.. and like two pple (syf) told me i look like a mix or eurasian... funny sia... yea and i had numerous occasions when pple speak to me in chinese and broken english when they actually can speak malay.. haha... well im not even really malay... im malay+boyanese... haha... but pple keep asking "you speak malay rite?" or something like that then ill go like "yarr".. helo i got A2 for malay last semester you know.. haha.... wadehell
speaking abt malay... im dead meat.. i promised ms saifa ill pass up my hmk todae... as in really i promise... i kept to my promise of actually doing it by saturdae morning.. as in really morning.... but then i didnt get to go to sch... was so late i was told by staff hazimah to go straight to national stadium... i wanted to give me hmk to sir to hold it for me... like proof that i actually did it by saturdae la... im serious abt getting good marks for malay okay! as in the things that im serious abt is (subjects i mean) malay, maths and eng... yea :(
random crap :
i wanna steal abigail's ipod!
i think im too muscular... my upper arms are huge.. shld tone down.. but my lower arm not bad.... my legs also... must tone them up.. but im happy with them.. but not wrong just getting happier rite?
im missing you already...
Saturday, July 01, 2006
me.