7:11 PM
mann.. didnt go sch today.. tmw will a whole way 8 hrs man.. haha. parents out of singapore de.. no diff kinda, coz i always not home wad.. haha.
lotsa things have been happening and it kinda distracts me. as in not just tHat but yeah. dunno why but ive been rather distracted these few days. like last two weeks i was wayyy more focused and productive. candle burning out alr? damn. must relight it! yeah hidayah, where's that fire? didnt you say that fire is me? ok why am i refering to myself in such a way?hahahhh...
and yeah, another thing to slap myself for- for forgetting to smile everyday, no matter what.
and yeah, for being distracted.
and yeah, ok i forgot for wad.
oh yeah, for screwing up my 60%
and of course, to wake myself up!
smile ;]
Saturday, August 23, 2008
me.
1:07 PM
at home now... stomachache got kinda worst just now in the morn. ended up sleeping it off again. haha
feels kinda good to be home tho.. like i hardly ever spend time at home these few weeks. good thing i'm able to spend time at home then, coz my parents are gg indon fer 4 days starting this sat yea.. haha, shlod have seen my mom's surprise when she saw me and my two younger sisters come home at the same timeon tues. or was it mon? ok none of us know what day is what any more coz well, spend too much time in sch. hahahhh.. but hell yea, its fer the promos so we just gotta go thru this..
somebody gotta slap my face fer not knowing my class blog. its a bit the.. erm.. gay tho.. haha! and the council blog.. a bit dead but i love the skin! hahaha
gosh, another reason fer someone to slap my face. that is, fer not realising wad great classmates i have. like fatin was so nice to me when i was sick la! on tues i was having stomachaches AGAIN (grr) so was sleeping it off at the sickbay. she came in alomst every break and got me milo! so nice cannn.. haha.. love love. and yeah, shaun is weird but somebody has got to remind me to sit beside him during maths man.. coz in his own way, he's damn funny! as in he keeps going "moron, retard, stupid" and all that to me just coz i cannot do a maths problem or i forget to bring my specs. guess how much fun i had calling him that back when he couldnt do a qn! haha! shaun- you want to die young??
me- you think i wont fight back meh?
shaun- dont try me.
me- fight ah!
well, in the end we didnt fight. but i had a good laugh looking at his expressions! and his jokes are always so unexpected! its like this idiot is like trying to make me feel better about my marks. ok the funny thing is not the joke la.. ok the joke is funny. but he told it in such a "stoned" way and all! haha. econs ytd was funny too
me- eh how to do ah? wad she talking abt?
shaun- *explains*
me- oooh!
shaun- moron.
me- thanks.
shaun- welcome.
haha!! funny really. but after that he was really annoyed at me coz i forgot my specs AGAIN. shesh! and yea, he said smth abt being blind and wadehell so yeah, i just moved to the front table. ppffft!
sighh... wonder wads wrong with my body. bleahh.. study study dayahhh
ok.. gtg.. before my mom slaps me, i better do the laundryyy....
Thursday, August 21, 2008
me.
9:26 PM
some times i wish i was a cat.
a cat can wander off alone.
a cat can have companions.
a cat can sleep for many many hours!
a cat can fight.
but i love being myself
dayahh got to know a lot of pple
dayahh treasures these pple
dayahh has a lot of good memories
dayahh has many bad memories
dayahh can fight
i never regret doing anything. at least for most of the time la. then again, i'm not saying my decisions are always right. nor am i living life to the fullest yet. haha. but even if i have a chance to change or turn back time, i won't change a thing.
and yes, amirah, please remember that slap each time you think badly of yourself. and remember! don't regret! even if it doesnt turn out well, it is still better than it is now! stooopid woman!
at least i managed to rest for a while after Os. now its fucking promos.
dayahh will fight.
dayahh is fighting.
dayahh won't let go of Valeo.
stay strong~
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
me.
10:16 PM
finally!!! the internet works! haha!
anyway sunday now. the week passed passed damn fast. leaders thing also. my investiture walk in wasnt used.good thing tho, i thot that was best. haha! anyway banni won the cheerleading thing! i think we won only coz well.. we cheerlead lor? heheeee.. great job hanisah, si ian (even tho u in the end sprain your ankle! sighhhhh haha!) and everyonee! we got 10 bux voucher each! but must buy all 10 bux at one shot! HOW? like sizzling ice haha... gorge on ice cream! haha!
wahh.. studying now.. ok as in not now, but like study period now.. not super stressed. feels like os. but it sucks, the possibility of retaining is like looming. sucksss... but cool la.. as in i'm seriously studying now. sadly, i'm doing wad i did before Os, study maths only. haha! like i rmbr, 2 weeks or wad before the start of the Os, i was still doing maths only. coz maths first paper. haha! just now did hist. hard siaaaa... 2 hrs to do one country, burma i think. notes all la.. then spent the next 3 hrs reading the other notes. at the end i accidently slept. hahah! but like the movie i watched fer hist "charlie willie-smth" reminded me why i loved hist. haha!
come on hidayahhh! let's go!
wadehell..
Lunar EclipseDarkness in the Light.
Such mystery in clarity.
In a perfect sight,
the Moon's acme of beauty.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
me.
10:02 PM
hahahhh.. gdness! how long as it been sia! havent even talked about my bdae and it's alr 3rd august. coolio!
anyway ok mel, my bdae was great! i dun usually have bdaes or wadeva planned out, this yr also never la. but i got great prezzies! mel, i love your gifts! your letter/card more. like i just love letters la. haha! the earrings aiyo.. how to wear! cannot in sch one! haha.. then anyway i got cake! damn nice can! hahaah. then burp gave me and jan a panda! nice nice. but the best was the shocking one! haha.. i've been opening my cupboard the whole day and there was nothing inside la. nothing there. so guess how surprised i was when gad was opening our cupboard to get somth and said "hidayah! there's smth here for you! and it's annoying me!" coz it was a yellow bag hung on my cupboard! inside there was a letter and a cat pencil case! nice nice! haha! and the funny thing is, there were exactly 24 cats on it! everyone in valeo except me! haha ;]]
nice nice.. so anyway much have happened. i forgot wad happened la basically. haha! but yeah, star camp... erm... learnt a lot... it was a failure la ha? i suck. thats why i'm gonna keep movin and do better! i wont let mr tan down any more! and yeah... many things have changed. mr leow is taking over us. sighh. let's see how it goes.
and yeah! i like netball! had netball inter hse competition on fri. we kena owned like nobody's business la! haha.. but it was great fun sia! that plus cheerleading on sat well, my whole body is aching now. after that, ytd, we had a little gathering for mr t tan. fun man! played volleyball for a bit with the rest and mr tan kg! haha.. his throws are always unexpected! ahha. it wasnt too sad. i was afraid and yeah, sad, but not to the point of crying fer me. funny thing happened tho. my legs were super unmovable for a while. weird type of cramp. and one thing! i almost fainted! like woo! finally! never fainted before one eh! but never faint la... just almost haha. tee kai was being very nice, thanks yo!
did you notice?
That Eclipse.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
me.