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7:24 PM

my dad's going china soon for work... well.... im AMBIVALENT to that matter... haha

anyway i learnt that word from LIT LEE... hahahah... new lit teacher... call him lit lee coz we got new teacher mr lee for chem also... so he's chem lee.... hahahaha... weird.. anyway... lit lee's is so much better than kala or nadia i tell you... finally got a good teacher for lit.. but dammit la.. he's leaving in two weeks time? ok im not sure... but i dun think he's permanent...anyway he very good... he all the time the notes damn good.. and he uses the white board! and his handwriting very typical Crescentian like... at lest better than mr loh and mr poon's ... shesh.. mr loh so like not smooth then it goes down horizontally some more... maybe thats why he makes me sleep... then mr poon handwriting like.. cannot read sia... oh yar... lit lee damn funny sia... wah lau.. got one part of the story its a bit funny and we chuckle.. then he wld like "yes it is funny... why isit funny? the irony.. blah blah.. yes.. its funny! hahahaha" and his hahaha is not his laugh.. a really ahahahaha.. damn funny! but then yar.. he's good... sighh.. and he talksdamn fast sia... haha.. okla...

ok.. so wads happening in my life so far... hmm.. i havent blog for a week.. hha... ok... wan tot know abt my results?... ok lets just say im happy abt them... hmm... ok la ill say this.. I PASSED MY SCIENCES!!!!!!!!! wohhhoooo... hahahhaa... like i didnt study for both chem and bio la... onli last minute i just look into the book... even nabihah scolded me for not studying and she said that she study like for two days.. (psst.. she got lower than me for both papers by one mark!) hhee.. too bad la.. but i tell u ah... when i got th ebio paper.. i was like this "lets see how bad i failed..." coz like half the class failed.. then the passing mark is 25 so i was like TErGAMam SekeTika coz i got exactly 25! omg omg omg.. alhamdulillah.... then my chem paper.. chem i all the more never study.. and a lot of pple failed too... then i just sit down... then i asked nabihah what she get then she was like 25/45... i was like.. okay... then i still haven read mine.. then i open mine and it was 26 lei!!! i was like OMG... almost cried for joy.. as in first time feel like crying for joy.. i didnt study for my sciences dammit!! and like somehow i could get the answers??? omg la.. but yes... thank god... alhamdulillah... haven tell my mom abt my marks.,. coz haven get all yet... but yea.. im happy!! and to think that ive always failed my sciences... and i really give up on them... maybe god is telling not to give up! actually i shld NOt give up la.. but yar... sad abt malay tho... sighh... but i shall do better!! hehehe... shall work hard for my math also!! okla.. enuf crapping... haha

Friday, August 25, 2006
me.

9:24 PM

i wanted to be less hyper but i couldnt... actually i was LEss hyper but then yar.. still quite bubbly... i wasnt so hyper coz i had to wear sch u during activity.. stupid hidayah!! why bring wrong coloured pants?? nazy blue and black diff you know!! yar.. my fault.. sighh... shld haf checked... just dumped it into my bag thats why... but i did pt in uniform tho! a bit the hard coz my skirt la.. but i did onli one set... still need to do one more... but then after my first set i talked to those who report sick... well guess wad i talked abt, ICEP!! yay! icep! i talked abt all the weird stuff there la.. ok i didnt say a lot coz some stupid pple like GADIS AND NABIHAH keep interupting me... oh wells...

part bs gonna haf their shooting test on thursday.. well.. good luck part bs... haha... its jsut so funny how time can pass by you in a flash.. as in its seems long but lets face it.. there's onli 24 hrs in a day.. and 4 weeks in a month.... so fast man so fast... i remember how it was when i was part A...shall not elaborate much...

then jsut now went home with gadis and insyirah.. hahahah... spoke in malay... damn weird sia!!
"ibu! maafkan aku! aku memang bersalah!"
"tidak! keluar kau dari sini! anak durhaka!"
"ibuuu...."

hahahahahahahahahahahhahaha.... funny sia... then me and insyirah was like talking a bit abt the p ramlee shows... wad cut the shoe.. masam masam manis isit?... "guru suka main bola.. hari-hari cikgu main bola.." hahahhaha... then gadis wld be pouting coz she dunno...nvm... some day we movie marathon all the p ramlee movies! hahaha... oh yar... gadis met her bro's fren.. as girl la... then they were like "eh! eh! gadis! eh you've grown! eh eh..." then me and insyirah wld like look at each other coz the girl was like "terlongjat-lonjat"! hahahah....

then go home.... boon lay mrt station.... saw a person wearing the class tee of my sis, kak nur.. easily recognisable la... then i jsut look at her... then she look at me (maybe she noes me thru my sis) and she gave that "oh crescent ncc girl.. junior ah.." look... then she also looked familiar so i jsut nod a bit then say "Senior." as in if she not from nc at least its obvious she frm crescent once so if i greet her wont be too weird rite'? actually will la but then henggg ah... she go and smile and nod back.. so yar.. senior... but yar... there was another incident when i saw a snr and she was like waiting for a person like me at the mrt station la.. then she look familiar... she gave me that "oh crescent ncc girl.. i know her rite.. my junior la..." look.. then i just say "senior? " coz i didnt saya nything for quite a long time... then she nod and smile also... from delta 04.. yupz.... the one i jsut mentioned that i met today was from delta 03.. my sis's batch... but yar la... as in even in jc 1 and 2 rite, my sis when she sees seniors tho they are no longer in ncc, she wld acknowledge them by nodding or saying "senior" .. she didnt like it when her cadets last time was like wad... waves and smiles so "sememek-ly" to her...haiz... i dunno la ha... ill still acknowledge my snrs after i get out of nc myself... i wonder if i shld continue being in nc.. as in i tell you ah.. there are so much opportunities in nc... as in ncc is not just activity.. shooting.. orienteering... push ups... pt... marching... there's a lot of stuff lei!! like icep (a lot of other icep other an us by the way) ... camps that we can hepl out.. AKE (yes gadis im writing this for you) ... parades.. wow mann.... like yar it wont be easy jsut getting into them and yar.. still haf the responsibilities of the school assigned to.. but yar.. ncc is so cool mann... but i dunno... maybe after this... it will be just .. well... over?.. but yes, what my sis says is rite... at the very end, its your pltnmates that matters...

ok anything else ot crapabt?..okla.. shall stop now coz later read too much eyes pain...

Monday, August 21, 2006
me.

8:48 PM

ya.. sekarang saya akan mengarang "post" saya kali ini dalam bahasa melayu .. mengapakah saya sedang berbuat seperti ini? jawapannya adalah senang sahaja. saya ingin perbaiki bahasa melayu saya kerana Khamis ini, saya akan menduduki peperiksaan lisan bahasa melayu saya. dengan ini, saya haruslah bertutur dalam bahasa melayu baku sebanyak mungkin... hahaa.. kelakar bukan? memang ganjil bukan?... hahaha... saya sendiri sedang mengetawakan diri saya sekarang.

saya sebenarnya ingin berhenti mengarang dalam bahasa melayu sekarang kerana ia terlalu ganjil dan saya kasihani mereka yang tidak boleh memahami apa yang saya sendang cakapkan.. haha... walaubagaimanapun, saya ingin beritahu bahawa saya akan cuba sedaya upaya saya untuk tidak begitu "hyper" apabila aktiviti luar darjah saya.. sudah dua kali saya mendapat pendapat yang saya sangat "hyper" dan kelakar.. saya rasa saya tidak patut teruskan begini.... haha... tetapi jika saya selalu "marah-marah" pun ganjil juga.. macam... tidak kenal tempat? apalah saya.. tiada apa-apa kuasa pun untuk memarahi sesiapa... tetapi saya amat bahagia kerana.... saya mempunyai banyak masa bagi diri saya! bolehlah saya bermain tennis! ya... baiklah.. saya akan berhenti becakap dalam bahasa melayu sekarang..

hahaha.. me speaking malay.. hahaha.. weird man.. but u shld lsten to gadis .. m0ore funny.. hahaha... okok.. sorry! ahha... yup.. malay oral on thursday.. i bet there will be times when i will get stuck coz i dunno the malay word of a eng one... happens a lot of times.. hehe.. well... guess wad! u know the 2nd paragraph of this post? i actually did it like continuosly! like the first one i was stuck stuck..forgot wad was weird in malay.. its ganjil by the way.. yupz.. ok im proud of myself! hahahaahahaha.. ok la. enuf for that... well today also got nothing happen.. other than kak nur roasted a chiken and she and my other sis got headache coz too much salt... must drink lots of water! ok lor.. nothing else for today.. bye! jumpa lagi! hehee

Sunday, August 20, 2006
me.

9:53 PM

todayy is a gooood day! well... i somehow always feel happy.. as in there are a lot of things to be happy abt actually.. ;} okay lets see.. wad happened that makes me so happy... well... i watched the matrix today (While ironing a lot of my dad's clothes) hehehe.. so funn... nostalgic sia.. haha... i like the fighting parts! and i like Tank! hehe... Neo.. okla ha... but cannot act.. as in KR.. but i like when he fights! haha... then we ordered pizza coz my mom never cook dinner todae.. but like hehehee... pizza just so suddenly? hehe... then after that.. as in after i fnish ironing the clothes, my mom gave me something... usually she will pay me for ironing my dad's stuff.. lets say abt 10 bux like that... i was hoping to get 10 bux fer me to save but then she gave me a diff thing,.. she gave me a bracelet! its real crystal... she bought it at Changi Airport i know.. coz las ttime she bought from there also then she said if pple say her bracelet that she just bought (i chose it for her) is nice, she wld buy me one too... that was a yr ago... i dunno when she bought this but she gave it to me and i was like Shocked! its black crystals with diamonds.. i think the "diamond" is crystal also la.. but then damn nice lei! another black and white thing in my colection of.. black and whites!! so nice nice nice.. but ill onli wear it on special occasions la.. rite now im wearing it but then for fun la! hehe.,.. damn nice lei.. my mom also bought another one.. similar to mine.. onli BIGGER.. haha.. but so big not nice... its black too! haha.. her previous one she gave to my aunt.. yupz.. coz my aunt gives us a lot of her jewellery... as in she sees that i like one of her stuff, she will give us... and she's not that rich you know... haiz... so happy! and im gonna haf pizza laterr... haha.. oh yar... the pizza gonna come late .. coz the oven soemething wrong.. wah lau im hungry sia... but then nvm... coz i good mood rite now, i wont scream at the piza delivery man.. haha... ok gtg!

Saturday, August 19, 2006
me.

8:36 PM

today was... okayy.. hmm.. very short day... mass run was nice except that i believe there were a few that ran faster tahn me and that does not make me happy.. it means that im not running as fast as i can... actually yar la.. coz my shoulder and thighs are very painful because of yesterday's tennis.. haha.. didnt warm up properly wad.. tsk tsk hidayah! haha.. but still ran la...

then eng... mt.. (oh my shoot.. i jsut remembered got malay compo) then amaths..ok amaths.,.

i seriously dunno sia! why do i sleep in mr loh's class????? like i try and try and try to stay awake but at last also i sleep.. then jsut now he say that every amaths lesson i haf to sit in front.. i was like thank god! im getting way behind of amaths because of this... illness!! there was once i wanted to do somehting like my knitting (i can knit without paying much atention to wadever im knitting) in his class so that i will be preoccupied so that i can stay awake! but then he dun let me.. now your fault la! arghh.. i dunno why sia.. maybe its his handwriting... keeps going horizontally downwards... his handwriting also so not nice... and he almost talks to himself... arghh..but then durin remedial just now i was wide awake (probably because i washed my face like alot! before his class) and i could spot his mistakes.. like 18-3 = 16??? halo!!.. 4/5 he put it as 9/5.. big diff u know! but then i could answer the qn that was given.. quite fast also... like i know i can do it.. jus to start

oh soryy.. i just ot home from belajar.. well.. yea... amaths... argh mr loh! i shall continue! you know rite.. all the time if he write something on the board he would erase a bit of it with his fingers.. his fingers nw all blue and purple bacause of that lei! then during remedial he was looking at how i was doing and he taouch my paper with his fingers then like got smudges lor!! arghh..okok... then yar.. just went home after that... oh my mom cooked a lot today!

then jst now go belajar... nabilah was there too.. wah lau.. some makcik go and say i should go ther more often coz later nabilah would smile more.. yes yes.. i know i make u smile nabilah! haha.. coz later she very alone wad... so i just said "insyaallah.." then i smile then she say "nanti nabilah lebih manis!" i was like "abeh sayer?" she was like "dua-dua manis la.." rite..... yes yes insyaallah ill go more often... im trying to make it a point not to miss it any more... yupz... siala.. my legs still pain sia... tennis la.. hahah.. ok gtgsn (gtg sleep now)

=)

Friday, August 18, 2006
me.

8:38 PM

today was a goooood day.. =).. (ok besides the scandal part of it )

ok highlights.. NC Activity! PTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPT!!!! i just love PTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPTPT.. and i found out froma delight a very good exercise... hehehe.... then got TENNIS!!!! as in me and delight played tennis... at first we suxed la.. but then after some time we got used to our rackets and we can hit the ball properly.. i acn serve lei!!!! as in so nice nice one.. my control (direction) is still not good la... okla... not bad but then hehehehe... it because of my racket! its great!! hehehe.. then i played a bit with Gadis.. almost killed her coz we were in close range and my hits are always like very like hard like that.. then we like rally ah.. a bit the stupid coz not playing for real.. and no space.. but then we continued the rally and guess wad... i ended it with a nice backhand smash! woohooo!! oh yar.. i wasnt even using my racket a t the moment... was using delight's one.. then delight was like asking me how and where on the racket i hit... i was like "i dunno"... i really dunno wad... haha... then when i ended it with the backhand smash, she was like "i give up!" hahahahhah funnnnyy... but then i like my serves! like not bad la... not like last time and i LOVE tennis!! hehe.. but im still very pathetic la... like no control and no idea abt techniques and ways to win ... but i wan to learn! who knows? some coach see something in me and then coach me then i become an official tennis player!hahaha.. who knows who knows... but tennnis is so funnn... just love it!

apparently my form is ok... as in delight says so... and somehow i can hit the ball and WOHooo.. it makes a nice sound!! hehe... i shld play tennis more often.. but with who? where?.. netball court again?.. actually i dun mind that place but then like play with who ah?.. i too scared of Yenfang and Sue wei.. they so good!! they take lessons la... i wan also!!haha.. but i wan to take tkd also! or any form of defence! heheeh... ehehehe... ok.. wad selde shld i talk abt?
hmm.. today, dlite lent me her book abt cats!! i jsut LOVE cats!!! hehehehehe.. so cute!!.. i wan toi get a cat myself... i dun care.. once im old enuf im gonna get my own house.. and in my cozy future house, ill get for myself cats!! hehee.. and my mom wont make me give them away! ok thats lame.. coz the only time my mom will let me get out of her hse is when i get married.. arghh.. wadehell ... ok er... got nothing much to say la... oh yar, i like this..

a creature of opposites.....

hehehe.. that was refering to cats anyway.. and i like it alot.... oh yar.. i jsut realiosed that most of my stuff... bag, wallet,, file and tennis racket is balck and white.. and yes, grey.. nice... hehe.. my blog is also black white and grey... hehehe

Thursday, August 17, 2006
me.

7:06 PM

the rain...


i wonder why i like the rain so much... ok except for the time it came on the BBQ ... but just now.. while i was waiting for the bus.. the rain was so heavy... so cooling.. so nice.. thne i caught a whiff of something familiar... from the rain... like the smell of a swimming pool... ive swam a lot when i was young (heyy... im still young!..) but then i remembered something less expected.. as in the memories kinda just went into my mind.. and i continued daydreaming abt it.... now.. let me take you back to my childhood... ok only a bit of it..

well... when i smelt that swimming pool smell.. i remembered about the swimming pool i used to go at a hotel when me, my family and my childhood friends and Their family would go for holiday...what i saw in my "vision" was.... i was looking at Shakir.. or was it Rudy,.. i think it was Shakir... we were swimming in the pool when it started to drizzle.. Shakir's mom made him get out of the pool.. i just stayed there swimming and seeing him go away... then he got anrgy coz the rain stopped and he didnt go back swimming... or did he?.. well i cant really remember.. i must be like less than 10 yrs old...

Anyway, Shakir and Rudy were my best-childhood-friends.. haha... my best friends were guys.. well... my family and theirs used to hang out together A LOT... then i would go to Shakir's house often... as in together with my family and Rudy would also be there.. then we would play play play... i cant remember much but i will always remember how much WReStLing we always did... like we're always fighting.. haha.. those were the good times mann... then we wouldnt let my sis,Yanah, in coz she would cry after we play like for a while only.. yar lor... she would.. coz we say we dun wan her to play then she say she wont cry but then she still cried.. haha... i remember... there was once we played with the toys displayed on on corner of the house... then i would be the one cleaning up after them... sigh... well.. everything kinda changed when they moved house.. as in we dun go there often any more... and i remember there was once i went there and Rudy came later... the only i could like remember saying was that his hair had like... grown! haha.. like he just woke up maybe.. dunno... well i didnt know that Shakir was a year younger than me until like i was primary one.. i asked him wad school he was in and he said he still in kindergarten.. hahahahahha... but Rudy is the same age as me la... well... primary one is okay.. not too late for me to know... but then to think that i knew them since i was born.. lets see... after 7 yrs of knowing each other... Rudy didnt even tell me!

haha.. those times were like.. funn.. well... like... i stopped like being with them often when i was... primary... 4 or 5.. i think p5... coz hello.. im a girl and i shouldnt be wrestling around with guys any more..(hmm didnt sound rite...)... haha... but fun sia.. fighting haha... but not seriously fight until wan to kill la... just fight but then can really hit one.... oh yar... i loved climbing the side of Shakir's house when i was young.. i dunno la.. like i miss them now... yep.. now... i dunno what school they are at... wad cca or wad... oh wait... i know shakir is in Fajar sec... yep.. haha... i wonder i any of the two is in nc.. haha.. shakir will be a junior.. .. hahahahahhaha... but then if we meet as in the families meet, we wont talk to each other.. Shakir and Rudy would obviously talk to each other but then like there is a new family that became friends with "our grp" and they haf guys .. so they will talk in their own grp.. then ill be there with my sisters... arghh... sighh. .. i wish we got closer.. as in we are still close frens like that .. but then cannot la... later do wad also?.. actually got a loot of things can do together one.. well, ive never really thought of them any closer than best friends so yar lor.. oh yar!!! i saw shakir like a few months ago and he's freaking tall!!!! FISH you!!! like so tall for what sia! you one year younger than me some more!! haha.. didnt even talk to him... just talked to his mom and dad... they were visiting us i think.. i dunno .. cant remember much... sigh... we used to be close frens.. but nvm la ha.. i got other friends now.. my platoonmates (<3 yall!) and yep a lot... but it will be so cool if we were still close haha.. i wonder if any of the two watches anime?.. hmm.. haha...

well... from the rain to swimming pool to my childhood friends.... Shakir, Rudy and Hidayah.. hmm.. well... the memories of them will always be in me (sounds like as if they're dead)... i love the rain...

Tuesday, August 15, 2006
me.

9:17 PM

sorry.. just needed a shout.. scream.. wadever... well.. i shld talk abt today!

wel firstly i think i bothered the lady who was sitting beside me in the train this morning.. well i had runny nose and i didt haf tissue so i keep making a lot of noise.. then she gave a tissue... well sorry la.. but thanks also..

then malay test... weird la.. somehow easy.. somehow hard... i dunno... was having a headache while doing it... im getting flu i think... my eyes hurt.. yeap.. then i finish it like so fast then i slept slept slept.. at least that sleep like stopped my runny nose a bit but then i still had the headache and the pain in my eyes... i think because i eat too many eggs already... then bio (die la ha..) then history (also die..) i dun really care a shit abt sci.. i dunno.. i ahted sci ever since... Ever.. pri sch... now also... but i like maths! but i dun like mr loh... he makes me sleeep....

then after sch mr loh so worried abt us he gave us a 20 minute revision.. 20 min not that long but then dlite and gadis was waiting for me... went jp with asilah and abigail for lunch and went to the new library at the community centre.. haha.. went to the children's part and studied there.. did study much la.. coz not much time... my mother la! wahlau.. ok nvm.. then went home... rite now my eyes still hurt lei... like cannot concentrate on anything... now i typing also keep on having mistakes... arghh.... i think i need panadol or something... *sniffles*

anybody got the POT song Ometto Samba?

Monday, August 14, 2006
me.

3:54 PM

WHY CANT I DO AS I LIKE.. IF I PREFER IT THAT WAY, SO BE IT!!

Sunday, August 13, 2006
me.

8:15 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006
me.

4:44 PM

you know... my whole family went shopping on tuesday.. all except me... actually i chose to stay at home... well they seriously went shopping la.. bought expensive clothes... its just that.. i cannot bear going shopping unless i really really haf the money.. i scared later my parents dun haf money.. apparently that dae they did la.. oh wells.. i actually need clothes for myself... and a pair of shoes... oh wells... well they got nice clothes but then one bad thing was that they lost one shirt that they bought from Phuture London got lost.. well we lost a hundred bux for that la.. oh wells... but then my mom is gonna buy me a sewing machine! yay! haha.. soon i wont even haf to buy my own clothes.. ill be making them! ahah... yea rite.. okla.. soon haha... ok im bored..

Thursday, August 10, 2006
me.

6:28 PM

i love to cook!

haha.. that was random.. well i just whipped myself a meal just now so yar... being random rite now! haha.. yea.. i like cooking a lot.. not really for my sisters or what but for myself! ahha.. and most probably for my future family if i will get any.. i like sewing too! and knitting! boy i just cant wait for the time when i can finish like work and school.. so i can retire and do the things i like! haha.. cooking reminds me of randee.. as in on saturday when i was trying to clean the fish (for debbie's sake) she say i look like a mother.. except for the chain.. except for my shirt.. ecept for my ring.. ok like?? .. haha.. i w=know how to clean the fish! i remember my mom taught me a bit... my sis, she's 19 and doesnt know how to do that.. well.. i onli had a lidi for that hhaha.. no knife no scissors no nothing.. and i was supposed to clean off the scales and cut away the fins but i onli had a lidi! haiyah.. haha.. and my random thinking leads me to OBS when on of my group members (i forgot her name.. sorry!) said to me
"hidayah, can you be my mother?"
well i tot she miss her mom of need like comforting or like wadever so i said
"yes?.. oh how are you.. i miss you so much girl girl"
then she replied
"no.. can you cook rice for me?"
i was like *moves away* .. haha... i thought my rice was not so good lei.. then they say that it was good coz it was soft and hard.. as in some parts soft some hard... i didnt like my rice.. ok a bit la but then i thought that they wld think taht it was weird.. oh wells... thank god for electric cookers..
ok... end of my randomness.... ;}

Tuesday, August 08, 2006
me.

2:49 PM

i finally got my blog to work.. changed the template also la... now dun haf my face.. haha.. wadever la ha... ok.. now that it has started, what shld i blog abt? recent events.. first activity? boreeng... the chalet? well we didnt even haf a chalet.. well it rained... yea... didnt get to eat a single chicken.. got to steal quite some marshmallows tho... well... shld i talk abt it?.. lets just sum it up and say that it didnt go well.. at all...

then today was the ndp celebrations + the small parade... quite nice la.. reminded me of how nice Ma'am Eileen looked when she did that when i was part a... haha... its always like this rite?.. part a you will just love your snrs.. part b not so much then part c then diff already.. but seriously in my generation.. as in frm i sec 1 to 3, delta04 is the best...

anyway common test is starting this friday.. oh wells... gambaremas.. ok la... nothing to talk abt any more... well i can crap a lot abt saturday but nahh...

me.

11:12 PM

i wonder whats wrong with my blog.. apparently others can read it but then i cant open it.. hm.

Thursday, August 03, 2006
me.

6:45 PM

today was a great day!.. ok i didnt go to sch and thus ill have four test tmw.. or friday.. same thing la.. so many tests but Nevermind! today was good because... ok.. firstly i went to jp and bought a skirt.. saw pple... then i went hq.. then went to pass to sir shamsul his memory card and card reader.. ( the us presentation ppt slides better be there) and then go jp again coz my mom had to do some stuff.. went to swensens! ate chicken bake rice and banana split..then met gadis, delight and randee at the polar place there.. talk talk talk while my mom bought more stuff.... then go home.. but i got to eat at swensens! and yar.. happy coz my mom and i were like talkingn quite okay-ly la... then we went to courts coz she wanted to look for a portable aircon.. i went arnd looking and looking.. then before taht we saw some sewing machines..then she was like "you like sewing rite?" then was like "yarr" then she say "you wan me to buy for you?" then i was like "no need.. some other time.." but yar.. ill save up to get one la.. then i can sew sew sew.. hehehe.. i know how to knit also you know! knit knit knit.. ok not knit but crochet..or something like that.. i dunno the spelling.. but its like knitting.. onli with one needle tho... yea... ok i go first... need to study for my FOUR tests! haha..

Wednesday, August 02, 2006
me.

10:25 AM

i wonder who's anonymous.. hmm.. doesnt matter does it.. ive know there is bound to be pple who will think that me keeping contact with others in ncc is a bad thing.. its not like as if we talk abt ncc lor.. we onli talk abt icep and lets face it.. what secrets are there? others are dont even care abt any of our secrets... what? tradition.. culture.. must we keep them secret too? .. what?.. are pple scared that i wld leak out any secrets? i dun even know if there are any secrets! what? or are u scared ill tell others the bad things abt ncc? or the problems we are facing?.. who the heck cares man.. i tell u my friends dont.. yes, they are my friends.,. and they are friends whom i really trust... actually i rant to them about my personal life actually.. hheehe.. i dunno who u are man but whatever it is.. be careful with your words and attitude... it may not hurt the person whom u hope to hurt but it may hurt you back... dun worry.. karma will do its job..

well... i cant wait for another icep meeting.. we will be filming! as in filmed as in.. oh wadever.. making a documentary or something... to show the next batch who will be going .. and yar.. still have to get the icep badge summore.. then yar.. i wonder when we will get it.. i forgot how it looks like actually... did captain john say something about the ncc dinner? i hope we can go.. haha.. it sill be funny seeing all of the guys wearing formal clothes... ya.. the whole time they have been wearing wad.. shorts and t-shirt.. ok jeans also... sighh.. i actually thought that after we pass up the essays, it will be over.. and we will hardly see each other again.. but there are still a lot of meetings and next yr ( i think) will be our turn to go to the airport to send off the next batch to us and wish them good luck.. haha... oh yar... i forgot abt the camp the us pple will be going for.. camp pinnacle isit?.. yea.. will have to stay in for them also.. then show them arnd Singapore.. haha.. tour guide.. ok the reason im crapping abt this is not for fun but for some pple who thinks im freaking free and are using their contacts for fun.. is still need to pass to a sir his stuff.. siala.. gtg...

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8:50 PM

yea.. monday really changed my life... actually no..ok i feel sad for the post i got.. which is.....
PRo-
Gramm-
ing
Head

well i took a long time thinking about it... and i got help from a lot of people for it.. like rupini.. and barathi and alot others.. well at first i thought i deserve more.. but i realised that i have already achieved more than any of my platoonmates... i just feel good right now.. i comehow cannot feel bad.. well i felt bad coz programming head sounds .. boring and i dun really know what to programme... i prefer pt head... haha.. like pt heads are Yifong and Randee.. why u steal my post?? .. haha.. well... i wanted to psot earlier.,.. as in rant out all my feelings... like how i felt when i saw the pacestick being given to cherie.. no doubt i was jealous.. i was in awe when i saw it happen whne i was a part a... wells... a lot of snrs came.. Kak nur's frens came too.. yea... i saw the few people whom i admire most in NCC... they were all from Delta 04.. sigh... you have earned my respect Delta 04... well not a lot of people have earned my respect..tho my respect means nothing... but yea...

anyways... im feeling good to know that i know for myself that im good.. ive survived NC so far and i did not give up... there was a time i almost did.. and i could have just quit ncc... well... i still feel the same way abt this...

before: crescent ncc sux.. i just wanna get out of it...
now: crescent ncc sux... i wanna do something about it.

that helped me stay in ncc.. i didnt care what post i may get any more.. anytime they wld adsk me what i wanted, ill reply pt head.. and i was somewhat serious about it.. in fact, i researched abt all the pt stuff... wrote it inside a book... i even asked around pple from sports cca about their trainings...

but i learnt a lot in ncc... it doesnt matter what i get... in my life in ncc, ive already earned a lot.... more than some of my platoonmates... thats why im happy... these are the few things that is helping me feel good about myself now..

- i represented my school and crescent ncc in competitions
- i did my best in all the ncc stuff that i have ever done
- i did not quit tho me, my parents and the letter was ready
- i went for NDP 2005
- i went for SYF GOH 2006
- i learnt the hard pain of getting betrayed by my own frens
- i learnt the good examples of my Snrs
- i learnt the bad examples of my Snrs
- i represented Crescent, NCC and Singapore for ICEP USA
- i learnt a lot there (yupz)
- i made a lot of friends and got more contacts now ( from US and also from SIngapore)
- i got over ..
- i have two great frens who are simply.. great! i love you Rupini and Sotong!!
- i had a taste of love..
- i was recognised by Chief Costa ( thanks Sir, im really glad and honoured for your recognition and your words are really helping me up now.. thank you for also believing in me... and sorry if i dissappointed you.. there are still better people and more worthy people in my part)
- and some other cheif whom i dunno but they still pass by me and jsut say " you're sharp.. you're sharp"
- i had the honour of holding up the NCC Flag.. ( ;} )
- i had gained respect from my flightmates
- i had fun in US
- i had pple calling me pretty just so suddenly! haha..
- i learnt ways to converse with people in who may be totally differnt than you and how to make frens...
- i learnt the art of intimidating pple and gaining respect (bit by bit) thru spec course
- i have people who expected me to get better.. so that means they believe in me.. and that believe makes me feel so.. happy.. thanks pple... ;}

thats a lot already... haha 23 lei... one of my fav numbers... yea.. i feel good... coz i know im good... and no fcuking post can judge me....i have achieved more than some people and im happy that i at least get that oppor and i tel you ah.. i will not break my promise/...

no matter what post i get, ill do my very best and make sure the crescent ncc gets out of this crap..;}

haha.. even if im not a staff sgt or wad i can me the cool sgt.. hahaha... anyway i talk too much already... i never even reli said what happened on monday... ok sue wei and abigail had nose bleed.. er.... ok thjats it i think,... then today....

i got stomach flu then got a jab on my butt then got mc for tmw but it sux coz tmw is half day... then... nothing lor.. ok byuez

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
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