4:37 PM
i can never ever have totally what i want... thats natural and that always happens...
i dream of one thing and god always gives me what i want, only 50%... ok fine.. thank you god i love you lots... you always give me more than i deserve.. actually now that i think about it, i really shouldnt complain.... as in, who am i to think that i deserve more... further more, me getting this things which i think are not enough, is actually much more than anyone gets.. like if theres someone poor, theres someone even poorer.. so if i get this bit, i should be grateful because there are people who dun get even a bit of it...
okla... i was a bit sad when my mom was screaming just now... as in.. this is my first time changing my room and i wan to love it... but yeah, i can onli really do that when i get out of this house and do it all by myself... its okayla... as in... okay lets see... no matter what right, i always have to make do... im now using my sis's, diyanah, table... its disgusting... well actually the table is ok and yeah... but jsut coming from her is DISGUSTING... i even wan to at least paint this table but then yeah... my mom went all nagging and screaming... wadeva la..[at this pt kaka farah steals the com and says hi!]
ok anyway... i am now happy!! haha.. put up my magnetic noticeboard and like i put like the magnets (which i decorated with my cat tm and heart tm) i like it!! i even put the magnetic cat on it! the one that debbie gave me last yr.. and also my small goblet that maam wenting gave... nice! i like it!! now to find space to out my books and wadeva crap.. but for now im likeing my space here... hha
its so funny... ok i know im crapping too much abt my room and bed area... yeah.. i think its gonna work out... thank you god.. eheh... ok la.. i shoudl stop blogging and do my work.. im left with ss and hist.. a BIT of hist onli and ss... well.. im happy... just need touch ups and stuff...
;} thank you god...
haha
Sunday, January 21, 2007
me.
10:02 PM
i guess the only time i will ever get my dream room is when i move out of here... as in... i dun like blue.. with grey it doesnt look any better and my stuff are mostly gonna be white... not me at all... and if i were to add in my favourite colours, it will just clash.. no fun... although i really dun mind the colour combination now... as in its light blue with pale grey and lostsa white.. i just dun feel myself.. it will be wierd tho if i were to have purple walls, with red stuff and black bed... and some silver around.. well maybe it can work out if i take careful shades of the colours but then oh wells... actually i can add in black in my room here... or at least my space... but then my dad bought this rug which is really more of a rag... as in the colour is beige plus light blue and dark green.. it goes alright but then it just looks like country area or so... like not me... but now i seriously cannot add in any red at all... purple maybe coz it might go well with my bed (grey ) but then it would go with the walls... ok this is like my first time really cahging my room so i wan it to look good.. somehting i will be happy with instead of the normal i have been having... sadly, its not going my way ...
well, i just took some time analysing my room.. i took out the rag and damn it! it looks much better.... its because of the colour beige.. once i introduced beige, the amount of colours get VERY limited.. black ill be out of place as it doesnt match with beige as i could be with white... so, no beige... most probably im gonna have things which are light brown but ill try not to add in more colours.. but then brown... hmm... dunno.. ill try... coz most of my stuff are black and i'd like to keep it that way... and i know one thing which i hope i can include... a single small vase with a rose in it... well obviously the rose wld no be something pple wld give me but ill get it myself... actually i haven experiment more with colours but ill definately put in some black, silver and a small bit of red (that rose) ... i dun think i can fit in purple at all it will be totally out.... oh yeah,... i shld get a rug which is like black and white combined... i also wan a bean couch... anybody know where to get them?.. and yeah... ill have a small collection of catstuff... hehehe... and ill save up money to get perfumes from the body shop... their colours are so nice! and then i can have like a cute collection of that too! and yeah, a chest full of accessories! well i do have some but ill buy more! or i can hang my stuff not like miny manequins(spl?)..... haha...
well that all takes money.. so like i pretty much have to buy a kitty bank to save money! (i dun like pigs.. so i shall call my "piggy bank" KITTY BANK! hehehe...) anybody knows where to get them?.. well most probably i can find it in a toy shop.. haha...
that sounds like i should shop more.. and go out more often... however, i still need to concentrate on my school work and stuff and no longer abt my room.. thus, i need to do these things fast... olevels are like so near.... im a little scared.... prelims also... i cant believe im sec 4.... time goes damn fast sia! well.. i jsut have to do my best in anything i do for now... tho its easier said than done...
i need help in my studies too! my only strengths are in maths and malay.... im gonna combine my sciences... i dun plan to bring them for jc anyways... or poly... i dun like sci.. never did... hen my humanities... i stronger in lit i guess.. but i need constant practice.. my ss and history are ... well.. not good at all.. but a bit better than my sciences... well, once i combine my sci it will be a bit easier for me but then i need to really SCORE for it... so i cant hold back.. i know i can do it actually, that is if i put in my best... but if i dun like the subject at all, how can i score... remember akutsu? POT... he does well in what he hates coz in order to justify him hating it, he has to be better than it.. as in.. if u have a rival, ou have to be better than him right?.. something like it... oh wells.. sciences.. bleah.. humanities.. bleah.. but il still work hard! gambaremas! hehe
something like that
Saturday, January 20, 2007
me.
2:09 PM
for the past week, ive been wanting to blog very badly, but then... no time.. as in seriously... goshhh
anyway i clean up my room... as in REALLy clean until
kosong lor... yeah.. found really cool stuff... ok let me see... i found... my mom's engagement ring (really nice lei... not like the other s that i usually see), my part notebook which i lost two years ago., 60 BUX!! found it under some container.. like ten ten ten dollars lei... wel, gave it to my mom then she used it to buy KFC for all of us, including my aunt who helped A LOT... and also... i found my old wallet.. the wallet i used in sec 2... that wallet was a birthday gift from my mom.. loves it... well its red, black and white! niceee... but even better... guess wad i found in that wallet.. 50 buX US lor!!! which is abt 85 bux singapore... not bad right?... theres a lot of stuff i need and wan to buy but my mom asked for that money to be given to her... oh wells... i hope she buys me an ezlink soon... gahh... anyway i wan to buy a bag sia....
ok nvm.. my room now is blue! light blue..iv never really liked blue .. well, its not my fav.. yeah then i have two bed in my room now.. like very high then can have tables under it... well i got no tables yet.. so im like doing my hmk on the floor... very cold and my ass hurts! well nvm...
oh yeah then i visited my cousin who just gave birth to a cute little boy named Rafiel.. so cute!! then he smiled when i kissed his cheek! so cute!! ...ok yeah...
then throughout this week ive been working hard for my hmk and stuff... late nights with nescafe.... im sick of coffee now... oh yeah wait.. have i talked abt pds? it ROCKED!!! well we did it in the parade sq with the lights all off... cool right?? yeah.. loved it... ok nvm... then another big thing that happened was the cca day... nice but thne it was raining... oh yeah then we got lazer rifles!! cool yooo... haha... well.. i dunno wad else to talk abt tho i actually wanted to talk much more....
oh yeah i lost 3 kg! ok thats not much but yeah! hehe... ok.. then wad else... ok i better start saving or wadva coz i got a lot of stuff i wan to buy... bleahs.. ok la . enough..
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me.
10:46 AM
i actually wanted to post this yesterday but i was kinda lazy...
ok anyway yesterday.. went to SP for the open house.. haha.. well actually more were supposed to go but in the end onli me and Dlite went.. just wonder wonder arnd.. got some brochures and stuff.. saw onli
makcik and her fren.. then went to tour the business school.. pretty cool la... but half way we got separated from our grp so like we missed out some stuff... Dlite is crazy over milo la.. well i dunno wad sch to aim for after olevels you know but... im just gonna do my best so i can have a wider selection of schools..
yeah.,. then went to JE.. eat at the KoreanKitchen... not too bad la.. in fact the veges were nice.. but ex la.. shared with D la.. then like saw some ------- from ---------... fill in the blanks yourself... they are like so ARghh and EWW and pukes blood!! ok one of them is a nice person la but the rest is like --------... goshhh... then they were like with that ---- ----..... i just HAD to tell somebody man.. called debbie la.. haha... then after that go home... wanted to meet my sistas at bugis but then very late i might as well not... oh wells...
haha... like funny sia.. i cant work hard for nuts... but i shall try... ok so i shldnt be using too much of my com for not so good stuff like blogging.. but hahaha... ok nvm... ok la... bye
Sunday, January 07, 2007
me.
12:24 AM
ok lets see... QUEST was weird.. i remember the third grp though, the onli grp of sec ones that answered me... yeahh.. then like it was so freaking hard to determine the placings la... goshh...but it was fun! haha.. finally a spec and doing this as one..
ok anyway... was sick the day before so i half way never go sch... go geylang coz my mom and sis wanted to buy tudung.. good thing i wasnt that sick at that time.. on and off thing you know?.. yeah... then go cut hair... at shirley mah... freaky sia.. i was so scared coz my hair was NOT good at that time until i was like huffing and puffing... like i was a bit the angry la.. then the haidresser saw me in distress and she help me style it.. much better after that ah.. then got sick again...then ok... slept alot.. got a call from my Darling Shermain.. haha.. yeah... then sleeeeeepp..
woke up late.. come a bit late.. was changing in nc room when the national anthem started.. good thing finish changing already la.. but i was stuck in the room until end of morning assembly.. did quest... then had makay class... then had assembly then had lunch then had campfire....
anyway, here are the comments on my hair hehe... "like 1970s"-gadis "reminds me of when we were in primary school!! nice"-amirah "bimbotic"-debbie "like anime"-my sis "cute" -by quite a number of pple... funny sia.. i am NOt cute! im not a bimbo either! funny.... yalah.. bimbotic... wadehell mann.. i dunno la ha..actually i dun really wan to look totally bimbotic coz after all i am a spec in ncc... yep.. but ya la... i think i Can work with this hairstyle.. really reminds me of me when i was in primary sch lei... like almost bob.. funny.. feel like uploading pics of when i was young and stuff... but this one MUST put password... haha.. that reminds me.. Gadd took my pics from the us thingy for the presentation.. didnt ask but NVM GADIS>>> haha..
anyway PDS!!! WOOOOHOOO... haha... im glad la ha... it went on well... the part as music like a bit the funny at first and i think they kanchiong so they kinda went a bit fast... then when they went fast they cannot shout properly.. but they did great anyways... part bs we great too! as in seriously.. im happy for the both of the parts la..then CHARLIEEEEEEE!!!! wahhh... im glad la.. well got most of the timings right and stuff... then like i can HEAR the comments by the sec ones...i think its good to freefall seriously RIGHT in front of themmm... haha... then with all the light off.. COOLLL.... actually they left one on and i thouhgt it really creates the ambience lei.. but then they switch it off... but nvm.. still great... well.. wahh.. im gonna miss pds.... haha.. ok maybe not now coz my body is sore... but yeah.. laterr... and thank god it didnt rain when it was our turn!! wahhh and it was also the first time we got to do it in the parade sq.... so happy now... i need to sleep man wads the time now sia... ok la.. ill blog more some other time... nitez
Saturday, January 06, 2007
me.
11:33 PM
well.. how was today?.. does it matter?.. coz ive forgotten how was today.. haha
school tmw... sighh... how fast time passed.. tmw will be the begining of me chiong-ing all the way! well, i should have started earlier but yeah... anyway.. well, i hope this year will be a fruitful one and that i can get thru this well. and get thru my olevels well... well right now, im like thinking abt 2006... ive never had so many things happening to me in one year.. im happy... and sad... ill be back to my mundane life.. week after week... only that this time, i shall really work hard... i dun care.. well, i shall go out more often this year... i hardly ever go out.. and like i should anyway.. haha.. i wanna buy that cat toy.. i need to hug something..
i wonder how next yr's gonna be?.. my senior year.. my last year in Crescent.. siala i need a bag... oh yeah.. these are the few things i hope to save up to buy (btw, i hate asking my mom for money and such.. but i cant save haha..)
- my handphone earpiece( mine broke.. sadd)
- a bag (the fred perry one..)
- new phone
- that Sony Walkman..
- that cat toy
a lot to save for.. damn.. oh wells... im kinda down now.. because tmw's school i guess... oh yeah.. saw shafiq with his girl at jp just now.. haha.. passed him twice... oh wells.. nitez..
dayahh
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
me.
6:40 PM
shall i talk abt 2006 or abt my day today?..
ok ill just briefly say abt today
anyway i went out with NabiLAH at BUGIS! fun fun ... finally bought contacts after a few days of not wearing specs at all coz i accidently broke it (while trying to fix it) and i also bought jeans! nice.. finally la.. then bought a dress taht i thouhgt was approvable by my mom but apparently not.. watched DEATH NOTE 2 which was totally awesome except for the ending but i know the ending is not supposed to be that so like yeah, im gonna watch the anime.. i LOVE L!!! LOVEL LOVEL hahaha.. then really had fun.. so funny la in the cinema.. stupidly bought the huge drink and ended up really bad.. run here run there coz most of the toilets were like under construction or wadeva shit.. then go arnd and arnd.. fun ah.. shall hang out there more often.. i like that place.. then went back home...
ok.. 2006
its the msot eventful yr of my life...im truely grateful for everything that has happened...
- -------- -- ---- acme... fill in the blanks. im happy this happened. i feel so free. it was painful. yet now im happy...;}
-being friends with asilah.. like from totally enemies to good friends... all god's power. from enemis to classmates, from classmates to allies, from allies to friends, from friends to good friends. sighh.. im glad and grateful for that..and asilah, wadehell are you saying i retardedly funny?? you make joke of me onli grr..
- being a 2SG. at first i was sad coz i thought i gave my all for ncc and all i got was a 2SG, yet now i realised, i gained more than i lost. in fact, i never lost anything. and there are people more worthy out there so i dun haf to worry. in fact, being a sgt gives me less stuff to worry. but all the same, i love crescent ncc and wld do anything to help bring it up higher.
- SYF GOH 06.. tho im not totally like close to syf, im glad i ever got this chance to march as a GOH.. truely grateful. so be able to wear no 1.. wow..
-OpHir. it was great. i loved it. ive always wanted to go for it ever since part a.. then its like before this, i thought i couldnt go and i left on my nick somehting like "ARghhh i cant go ophir!! so saddd!!" something stupid like that.. then i got so many replies. things like "become a clt and you acn go ophir for free!" and "ophir not that good la, no need so sad" .. things like that.. then when i went for ophir, i was so happy.. abigail and jamie ah, dun think wrong thing ah..asilah also!
-and of course. ICEP USA 2006 and ICEP INBOUND 2006. what more can i say? i loved ever second of it. being in BRAVO Flight. being in cahrge of the US delegates. JOHNSONNN!! ElizaBETHH. CARBonE. BIGLERRRR. Clark. and also the bruneians.. the indians. the australians, the uk the EVERYONE! i would really like to thank all those who gave me the opportunity and i shant ever forget everyone who went with me for icep usa 2006.
S/CLT Nadzri
CLT Shamsul
CLT Wilson (thank you for helping out for US icep inbound, sir)
CLT Lu jie (thank you for helping out for US icep inbound, sir)
CLT Jason (thank you for helping out in icep inbound, sir)
CLT Johnathan (thank you for helping out in icep inbound, sir)
Snr Zi Yang
Snr Devesh (thank you for helping out in icep inbound, snr)
USM Syafiq
USM Yi Tong (sotonnggggggg!!! i love you!!! ;} )
3SG Rupini (ruPINI! luv you babe)
sighh... missing all the moments... ICEP inbound. theres too many people to name...sir james, sir aaron, wee weee! tadpole! haha.. gahh.. but it was great......... sighh.. i wldnt trade that for anything. the whole thing makes me feel so lucky. i still haven get my badge and cert dammit! haha... well...
thats it for 06!
Monday, January 01, 2007
me.