red red rose.

11:56 AM

ok great... i slept at 930 pm yesterday to wake up early to do my hmk todae but i still woke up at 11 plus.. oh wells...i just love to sleep... you know why?.. not because ill miss Amaths lesson thru that but because when i sleep ill dream... and i can manipulate that dream to wadeva i wan.... in real life its much harder... in dreams ill think abt it and it will appear rite before my eyes... cool huh?...
my best dream ever was when i really knew i was in a dream and tho it was weird la... like there was an old lady with a lot of shoping bags who just like drop down (like when we did the jetty jump) from a very high floor and glided down and can still just walk to the road and to the sidewalk without getting hurt and me wanting to do that too but then there was this guy who told me to follow him so i did and we got into his car(which was in his house!on that same level) and we drove down and to road... haha... then i knew it was a dream to to everyone that was there ill fight them and ill kick them hahahaha.. but there was one part when in my dream my sis go and stopped me... haha... ok that was a long time ago..

dreams... the reality is such a nightmare... sigh... tmw is my birthday.. ill be fifteen... fifteen... how do i feel?... i dunno.. nothing really... ive lived in his world for 14 yrs and some months... wad haf i accomplished? is that even the correct spelling?... i dunno when ill die... nobody knows... i might die today.. even before i become 15... you know... its just so sad that if you haf a bright future in front of you and you die right before u go for it... like... what if you really believe you can get something... but then something really stops you.. like death... well... i wan to just tell everybody that i love you guys... my pltnmates..theres 17 of you... yes... all 17 of you.... the US members... Rupini, USM Yi tong, Sir Nadzri, Sir shamsul, Sir Jonathan, Sir Wilson, Sir Lujie, Sir Jason, Snr Devesh, Snr Zi yang and USM Syafiq..... i love all of you guys too... All my OBS frens... who really taught me things... i love you guys...the MALAY trail pple.. hehe.. tho i knew you guys for onli a few hrs, im glad singapore is that small that we met... all my teachers (except one in particular) , i love you guys too... ma'am Ho Li Yi and ma'am Goh i wont dissappoint you coz ill be doing my hmk now! haha.. to show how much i love you all im gonna do my hmk now ahhaa...

this year's june... really changed me... ok not it changed me la but i became more... confident... and i know what i really wan for my future.. the near future and also far far future... i learnt a lot... i hope i can bring it not onli to ncc but also to myself as i grow up... fifteen years eh? fifteen....

before i die.. the person whom i want to see is.. you...

Sunday, July 09, 2006
me.