red red rose.

8:50 PM

yea.. monday really changed my life... actually no..ok i feel sad for the post i got.. which is.....
PRo-
Gramm-
ing
Head

well i took a long time thinking about it... and i got help from a lot of people for it.. like rupini.. and barathi and alot others.. well at first i thought i deserve more.. but i realised that i have already achieved more than any of my platoonmates... i just feel good right now.. i comehow cannot feel bad.. well i felt bad coz programming head sounds .. boring and i dun really know what to programme... i prefer pt head... haha.. like pt heads are Yifong and Randee.. why u steal my post?? .. haha.. well... i wanted to psot earlier.,.. as in rant out all my feelings... like how i felt when i saw the pacestick being given to cherie.. no doubt i was jealous.. i was in awe when i saw it happen whne i was a part a... wells... a lot of snrs came.. Kak nur's frens came too.. yea... i saw the few people whom i admire most in NCC... they were all from Delta 04.. sigh... you have earned my respect Delta 04... well not a lot of people have earned my respect..tho my respect means nothing... but yea...

anyways... im feeling good to know that i know for myself that im good.. ive survived NC so far and i did not give up... there was a time i almost did.. and i could have just quit ncc... well... i still feel the same way abt this...

before: crescent ncc sux.. i just wanna get out of it...
now: crescent ncc sux... i wanna do something about it.

that helped me stay in ncc.. i didnt care what post i may get any more.. anytime they wld adsk me what i wanted, ill reply pt head.. and i was somewhat serious about it.. in fact, i researched abt all the pt stuff... wrote it inside a book... i even asked around pple from sports cca about their trainings...

but i learnt a lot in ncc... it doesnt matter what i get... in my life in ncc, ive already earned a lot.... more than some of my platoonmates... thats why im happy... these are the few things that is helping me feel good about myself now..

- i represented my school and crescent ncc in competitions
- i did my best in all the ncc stuff that i have ever done
- i did not quit tho me, my parents and the letter was ready
- i went for NDP 2005
- i went for SYF GOH 2006
- i learnt the hard pain of getting betrayed by my own frens
- i learnt the good examples of my Snrs
- i learnt the bad examples of my Snrs
- i represented Crescent, NCC and Singapore for ICEP USA
- i learnt a lot there (yupz)
- i made a lot of friends and got more contacts now ( from US and also from SIngapore)
- i got over ..
- i have two great frens who are simply.. great! i love you Rupini and Sotong!!
- i had a taste of love..
- i was recognised by Chief Costa ( thanks Sir, im really glad and honoured for your recognition and your words are really helping me up now.. thank you for also believing in me... and sorry if i dissappointed you.. there are still better people and more worthy people in my part)
- and some other cheif whom i dunno but they still pass by me and jsut say " you're sharp.. you're sharp"
- i had the honour of holding up the NCC Flag.. ( ;} )
- i had gained respect from my flightmates
- i had fun in US
- i had pple calling me pretty just so suddenly! haha..
- i learnt ways to converse with people in who may be totally differnt than you and how to make frens...
- i learnt the art of intimidating pple and gaining respect (bit by bit) thru spec course
- i have people who expected me to get better.. so that means they believe in me.. and that believe makes me feel so.. happy.. thanks pple... ;}

thats a lot already... haha 23 lei... one of my fav numbers... yea.. i feel good... coz i know im good... and no fcuking post can judge me....i have achieved more than some people and im happy that i at least get that oppor and i tel you ah.. i will not break my promise/...

no matter what post i get, ill do my very best and make sure the crescent ncc gets out of this crap..;}

haha.. even if im not a staff sgt or wad i can me the cool sgt.. hahaha... anyway i talk too much already... i never even reli said what happened on monday... ok sue wei and abigail had nose bleed.. er.... ok thjats it i think,... then today....

i got stomach flu then got a jab on my butt then got mc for tmw but it sux coz tmw is half day... then... nothing lor.. ok byuez

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
me.