Memories
*June 2006
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*March 2011
i read my diary... as in my last time the diary... haha... so much crap... can see my handwriting change like so much after some time... but then i really regret... i regret some stuff like.. i really need to say this... i am so sorry... i loved you a lot... the things that happened ... i loved every part of it.. it regret not treasuring it.. i regret making it like as if its your fault.. the truth is, both of us are at fault... things do change, you said so yourself.. i just wish it didnt.... i was crazy abt you.. i guess i was stupid to fall in love.. weird huh? me, Nur Hidayah, being in love... but now... my heart is so cold.. i wish i tried harder to understand you.. i wish we both werent so shy... i want you to tease me and call me names again... its better than you passing by me and just nod in acknowledgement...it wasnt enough.. i really did like you.. i read my diary.. the things i write abt you... makes me feel stupid all over again... but then when i hear my friends' uy problems, i feel more stupid for not treasuring you.. i took you for granted.. you always tried to continue communicating... by ANY way... you wld understand if i crapped to you abt school work and stuff.. you wld encourage me all the way for anything... you wld understand if i say im busy... but then... its just so sad... that we were both shy and we put studies and cca first.. you got caught up with soccer and hockey and me, nc... see, ncc, the things i sacrifice yet... ...i liked the way you constantly try to look at me... but now you wld just glance and look down after that... i like the way you show me that you like me... the little little clues... and the sweet things you did for me... but then.. i changed myself... i was always scared this wld happen and it did.. for me... i changed too i guess... i wish i was still your moon...
Sunday, September 03, 2006