red red rose.

7:46 PM

back to sch todae! very happy to go sch! some pple didnt realise i was gone tho, coz we cant get to meet in sch even if we were present.. haha.. and yea, im ok alr! thanks yall fer the concern ;]

haha.. i wonder why im so happy.. ok i DO know! ok i THINK i know! hahahaa.. im so retarded hehehs.. ok im happy coz i like my class! its no where near united but im working towards it with Christian! (eh gad.. hehe) but then so far im not having any problems getting to know them! which is great!.. i was really nervous mann.. haha.. ;]

and ANOTHER reason is that.. wait lemme think properly.. its because i no longer bother! i no longer care abt it!.. as in seriously.. its true man, wad my sis said.. u CAN manipulate ure memories.. as in history... memories arent memories unless there are feelings attached to it. the rest are just history. hahah.. i made that up lah.. but really mann..and like if those memories werent significant to him, why shld i hold them close to me? haha.. ok i still have that little bit of feelings left but it doesnt hurt as much any more! as in really, im not in self denial.. or then again it cld be that ive gotten hurt so much that im numb to it.. dunno la! haha.. wadeva it is, i have come to accepting it and i have inner peace now.. ;]

actl there Were some bad stuff that happened todae.. i know there was.. damn.. i cant rmbr now! hahaa... its all gd anyways! hhaha

so anyway i was thinking... why do i blog abt my day in sch and such.. i thot of that qn when i was watching the news this morn abt the war in iraq which is STILL gg on! as in.. why do i discuss such trivial matters when there are more impt things out there that we shld be giving our attention to? i felt silly and pathetic really.. pathetic because i hardly know abt the situation in iraq, thailand, malaysia etc when its right on my face! worse, it is really my fault as i always push those things away and instead take comfort in my small private life/world where it (for now) revolves arnd sch, frens, camps, tennis etc. i shld be ashamed of myself mann...

THEN AGAIN... priorities and level of importance is relative.. well, im trying not so sound selfish and self-centered but really, i am currently a student whose responsibility revolves arnd sch events, my class (08A03!!), family, friends and so on.. alright, maybe not responsibility but yeah.. those are among the things i, like many other people of my age and of similar situations, find important. furthermore, i shldnt stop posting abt hows my day and such just becoz it is less impt and rather silly, esp since not THAT many people read it or find it significant. In fact, now that i rmbr, i blog mostly for myself. of course there are other reasons (i first created my blog in sec2 to bitch abt Ass and Asshole! eh asilah, gadis, yall rmbr?? ) but in the end i just wanna look back on my life after a few yrs.. a refreshing thing to do actl! hhaahha

btw, mel bought me this handphone strap.. white cat! haha.. its mildly cute-sy i guess can ah.. hahaha.. no laaa... i LOVE it! haha.. but really, i like it! coz it goes with my phone now.. white too! but aiyo.. im KUROneko.. not SHIROneko.. haha

and yea.. watched "mind your language" during gp (after 30 mins of breakfast with Clement!) hilarious!

and yeah.. gg malaysia fer two daes.. not really looking forward to it.. i hope its not gonna be another malacca trip that i had recently..

ok this has been a super long post! i apologize if anyone fell asleep haha.. (its too late to apologize!..) and yeah.. as MeL requested, i shall end my post with

I love my sweet darling Mel!

(everyone, please puke ;] )

Thursday, March 20, 2008
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