red red rose.

12:03 AM

emotionless...
i guess that really is how I'm feeling now... Idunno la... like before getting results, I didn'tfeel anything... ok a little nervous Ia.. if 1 didn't feel that way then I'm not human... But I tell you ah...I was so proud of jia yi, Wang Jin, Shermain, Sue Wei and a lot more la...and our cohort did better than last yr... cool...but our juniors damn poor thing...haha...

but really... I received the results also like nothing... but it was nice la when I received calls and smses from pple... Melissa called me Ia.. haha... Then I got very happy... coz I called Aaron like this...

Ring ring!
Aaron: Hello?
Me: Yippa Anderneh!
aaron and me: apple apple, orang harlega!

then we continued and he was damn happy la... I got happy too coz got someone to do Yippa with me. .. like me, gad, mira, abigail have been cheering but cannot yip-pa... hahaa...

actually I dunno... after reading something... my emotionless peace have been disturbed... sometimes like I feel I'm Rukia from Bleach... like she was in peace coz she had already resignedherself to her fate then Ichimaru disturbed her by doing something I "forgot"... yea... like that lor... Idunno la... I don't have that painful feeling in my heart any more but half of me wants to run, half of me wants to lie on the floor to rot. Half of me wants toscream and cry. Halfof me wants to smile and laugh... I'm a creature of opposites... a cat...but I'm gonna take everything in my stride... (is that correct?)stand up tall and to whatever bad events or Wadeva, just go "Fuck it, I don 't give a damn." and move on.Actually I write all this like I'm in a frustrated mood or something... but honestly... I can 't feel a thing...

hahaa... ok anyway I love Malay lesson today! Taboo! haha... and ya. I'll miss winking at How Sun... sigh... haha...

Friday, January 25, 2008
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